futuretopstudent

2011-04-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

this time, this post isn't a need, but a commitment, sad... -_-

but really, enjoying my block leave now, and life after POP is really like a POP, when i saw my posting, hmmm, i sort of expected i won't get into sispec, but nvm, what Raven taught me is to persevere, and before army i was really looking forward to something slack, but right now, i am wanting something hiong, cos i wan some nice memories, i foresee my future posting to be slack but sian, and it's all what i deserved :( i haven say my posting, it's RP, apparently i'm gonna do guard duty for the next 2 years, so, sian la :(

this week has been ok for me, mon went out with section mates, tue went out with ws and ray, wed went back AJ and had dinner with qj, zy, des, cp and cy :) but thur was cooped at home as i didn't arrange for anything as my interview occupied me, to think i thought it will kill me -_- and 1 hour of fri afternoon was spent washing army stuff, sian la, tmr morning have to do packing, but nvm, i'm taking things slowly for now, i think i still have time :)

and i'm back to my youtube shows :) :) :) right now i'm watching conan and power rangers. but too bad, it ends this sat, cos i'm going out on Sunday :) hopefully, and i really hope, sincerely, that at least 10 could make it, but right now, if the outing doesn't get cancelled all of a sudden, it's alr an achievement, i guess the divide's always there, it's i who choose not to see it. :(

been spamming my NDS, i miss playing NDS daily, and with this new posting, althoughi won't get t bookout daily, nvm, my aim is to not ge confined or some shit -_-

i wanna go out this sat, but who shld i ask, it's like ppl are either busy, working, have their own plans, dating, sian la, i need something to occupy my block leave, i don wan to be a com nerd :(

hopefully will have the mood to post come my next bookout, i hope to share positive memories, and hopefully, i can share something like, I'm accepted into NTU, hopefully, really only can hope now -_-

gd luck to those peeps in Raven 01/11 Platoon 1 , enjoy ur postings, work hard, don slack off, and just take on our duties head on jiayou :)

seriously, i'm hungry, i don know why? or maybe i'm just itching for a snack......

2011-03-04T23:59:00.002+08:00

i really like this blog, right now, it's like a mental companion

first post after bookout, yeah, it's been so long, but life's been tough recently

life at home sucks big time, some freaking personal problems that i don wan to say to anyone is plauging my life damn bad. my home used to be a place i look forward to, now, i am not sure of its existence anymore. as it turned out, it never existed, and my views about the word family for the past 18 years have only been one-sided, it was never reciprocated at all :(

sometimes i just think about tekong, BMT is fun, though there's lots of shit, at least we recruits go thru it tgt, that's the experience i want to keep, at home, right now, i have forgettable experiences, i don wish to go home at all, it's damn lonely and it tears up my soul :(

many ppl most likely don't know how i feel, i don know who to look for to ever feel happy again, right know, i feel damn good, and happy when i'm with my friends, but family, right now, this word cannot exist in my dictionary, cos it's impossible

okok, talk about today, a level results day

H1 econs C
H1 GP C
H2 Phy A
H2 Chem A
H2 Math A

on the bright side, i did what i wanted, i got the 3 As, i passed my gp and econs, and i did not get a grade worse than D, so i was not feeling sad about my results. but as i looked at the IGP, meaning the cut-off for uni courses, the ones i want to enroll in demand higher standards :

seriously, now i learn that one cannot be so narrow minded when making choices, initially mt choices were business, or math related courses

right now i'm seriously looking at every course and see whether it suits me, or i suit them, so my state of mind right now, is confused

i am confused about life, and everything :(

someone help me :(

2011-02-09T13:49:00.002+08:00

alright, my last post before i go army, and i really have no idea what to type here leh

ok la, lets talk about CNY, CNY this year has been fun, with family gambling sessions the best, cos for the first time, i managed to win money, and quite shockingly, AJC played a role in it, cos when i wore my AJ Cheetah house tee and played mahjong, i managed to win $$$, once i lost about $5 alr and i quickly wore that t-shirt and turned the tables around and won quite some $$$, like that shirt man

went to quite a few houses, but as usual, i don interact that much, just go that weird weird feeling whenever i visit someone else's house. maybe the angbao matters though, hehe :)

CNY has been about feasting on goodies, i think my chin-ups now die liao, i haven try them out for the past 1 month, but at the very least, i got Silver for Napfa hor, lucky? no way, i worked hard for it, and if i can do it once, i can do it again :)

during sunday, i wasn't able to attend 0109 outing (sorry guys -_-) cos i got dinner with grandparents. after dinner everyone just talked until 11pm, and most of us were shocked that it was 11pm alr.

and for these past 3 days, it was me, and the com, and done. i realised that i eally want to do lots of things in life, i want to be a teacher (many ppl know that alr) but i also want to learn football coaching, learn MMA and kick ass, be a volunteer, damn it, if only my enlistment was in may, or if only i was a girl, then no NS, and free to pursue my goals. i wouldn't call these my dreams yet, cos i don really need to accomplish all these, i wish to, but i don't need to. what i really need to do is stated on my facebook profile alr, but right now, MMA fighter, soccer coach, and if possible, be involved in staje still. cos i saw my seniors still actively involved in staje, as an actor, as a play write, i don know, it just seemed fun and exciting.

of course effort is needed if u want to pursue ur goals, i can only wonder if i have the perseverance to pull through and lead the life i want to live.

talking back about army, i got most of the stuff packed alr, i can't believe feb 10 came at so fast, it really is like a blink, but can i accept reality, well have to, and become a man. i'm only left with the goggles, some detergent, and stuffing all these items into one bag, haix, i will really miss a lot of my friends, but also my com, my ds and miss being a slacker

IT'S TIME TO GROW UP, LEE YONG CHANG KENNETH, FROM NOW ON, U'RE Y C LEE, AND I'M GONNA JUST PERSEVERE, AND PULL THROUGH :)

2011-01-28T10:27:00.002+08:00

today is 28/1/10, when a few hours later i will start the 4thday of my promoter job.

so far, station (meaning promoter) has been bring so far, with not many ppl around the minimart. so far sales have been slow, so what i did was to interact with the kids that i see :) and right now i'm reporting for work earlier, so as to earn more money :)

so today, tmr and sunday, hoping to see sales boom, at least i won't be so bored on my job and need to resort to playing ds and read newspapers to relieve my boredom.

and is pokka green tea really that nice? i don know leh, many ppl say it's nice, and i could buy one can and try someday, cos drinking green tea isn't really my favourite activity

interacting with the kids really made me think that one day, i will sign up to be a volunteer, maybe not now, but maybe hen i've finally settled down :)

right now, there isn't anything i want to blog about, so, okok, next post shall be about my buys during CNY, hopefully i can get what i want :) (orange fantasy...)

and sometimes in life, u just gotta be alone for a change
there's no point asking someone to accompany u when most of the time u are just alone
alone is my new friend, my partner, my life and my destiny

2011-01-06T23:37:00.002+08:00

hmmm, first post of 2011, and it's made on 6/1/2011, which was 19 days since last post :(

and i;m using a new laptop to type the first post of 2011, with additional warranty, this laptop cost 1200 bucks, and will be monthly payment of $50 per month over 2 years, haha, 2 years in army and this com will be fully paid, can't wait :)

but a slight problem is, i have slight difficulty typing on this lappy, so need time to adjust, cos i keep spelling words wrong, but at least, it's fast (like duh, this is a NEW laptop), if it's slower than the old one then why i buy? LOL :)

hmmm, so i recently have this supermarket job, and BELIEVE ME, it's a horrendous job :( it's like we have to do shelving, and remove stuff from shelves, fine, i'm ok with this, but one thing is, most of the time the old products are not reflected on the new price tags, so we have to anyhow put these old products back, and next time take them down again, when the correct products arrive, I mean, what the heck man, this job is stupid la, the only thing i learnt, is how to read panelgrams, which i am sure anyone can read after a 1 minute briefing

sian la, at least i am ending soon, working at shop n save was a mainly bad experience. although get to know a few nice friends, it still can't outweigh the mundane behaviour of the job

and after shop n save (i'm ending on 8-1-2011, which is this saturday), i'm working at another SUPERMARKET job, yeah, this time it's at econ minimart

apparently, job description is as follow:

* Work in supermarkets
* Starting on 14 Jan to 2 Feb 2011
* Stock up and promotion of CNY drinks
* Commemorative T-shirt and training provided
* Basic + Completion Bonus
* Students welcome to apply!

hmmm, seems much more interesting than shop n save, but then again, i learnt that agencies can't really be trusted fully, shop n save job wasn't supposed to be that bad. expected pure menial labour, where u just work, and don't have to think, ok la, so i get to work in air-con environment, but work with guys, and no girls, is a minor turn-off, then have to crack our brains to think about how to stuff the goods, and not make the floors so cramped, SIAN TTM!!!!!!!!! -_-

so if i start on 14 Jan, that means i only have a 6 day break between the 2 jobs, hmmm, i think enough for me to do a few things. on 10 Jan, i will go back to AMKSS, see my juniors get results and maybe give the rundown of AJC, and it's secrets. hehehe LOL

and i will go gym one day, and maybe catch a movie during a weekday, i think i will just do these things alone, no point finding someone else to accompany u and then have to plan this and plan that. alone is sometimes the best policy :)

after all, u cannot escape from ur own destiny, up till now, i still believe that i'm destined to be alone. an i can't change that.

NOTE TO SELF: blog more, and blog more regularly :)

2010-12-18T21:19:00.002+08:00

so recently celebrated zong you and qin jie birthday :)

day started very well, played wii at chun you's house, then went to buy steamboat ingredients, and desiree was mad at me for mixing up between bones and broth :(

then screw up came when me and zong you went for job confirmation -_- and it turns out we two could ave gone on friday, sian

and the jb we got, is cheap labour, gonna work for shop and save, help do some shelving, carrying stuff, and it's simply hard labour, pay's $5 per hour, and lucky for me, i don need to pay transport cost, cos it's only a 5 minute walk :)

but the bad thing is, this job only involves guys, so i guess u ppl can infer from here what's the bad point about this job :(

okok, that was for thursday, otherwise i rotted for the remaining 4 weekdays, and today, it's still a standard saturday, and i wished i can go out more often, although going out=spending more money, and i still want to fulfill dream 1

and here we go to topic of this post, dreams :)

on facebook, on the left, in the self-intro box, this is what that is written:

My 3 dreams (as of 14/12/2010)

1. To own as many orange merchandise as possible

2. To open my own tuition centre that charge low fees

3. and the most important one, to work as a volunteer teacher in another country, helping to rebuild lives :)

actually, i want to write more, but i didn't know there's a word limit

and today, i feel so relaxed to do lots of typing, and put my thought in order :)

1. i mean, it's obvious, right now, i only own very few orange merchandise, it's a dream to own orange shoes, water bottle, watch, slippers, handphone(though i don know if there is one, maybe an I-phone with an orange protector?), shirts and lastly, an orange NDS!!! the orange NDS is something i only saw on google images, so i wonder if that can happen. This dream may need lots of time and money to complete, and i wonder by when will it happen? -_-

alternatively, i can buy orange NDS casing, but that's only a consolation prize :) maybe an orange laptop? i also don mind orange socks, but DEFINITELY not orange hair, this is a bit too much :)

someday if this dream number 1 is fully realised, i will post a picture, of me in all this merchandise, but don't expect this blogskin to turn orange, maybe it will happen, but not in the next 2-3years :)

2. it's a dream i had whenever i thought about the topic of tuition. during my time at AMKSS, it's a dream of mine to become a teacher, cos i was inspired by the people i met at amkss, regardless of classmates or teachers :) and in AJC, 0109 guys sometimes talked about dreams, apparently, according to yibin, pisces ppl like to daydream (he said this, cos he said he liked to dream about his future), and yibin also said that if i straightaway go become a teacher after a levels, i will limit my options in life (this was echoed by almost all the 0109 pisces guys, and i really agree) indeed, it's important to ensure that u are stuck in crossroads, at least keep ur options as many as possible, and thus i want to stidy business at university, so that i can try to fulfill dream number 2, i want to appear on newspapers, saying this tuition centre produces good results and is very affordable, cos i don want tuition to be something that the rich parents abuse. tuition should be affordable, low fees such that the poor can also enjoy tuition, if they need it, also, my dream tuition centre will have an e-portal of student-teachers, such that students that want to tutor can register with me, and i will arrange deals for them, of course, this is already very common, but most ppl would not want to employ students as they may be inexperienced, hence, my portal will need to consist of students that are willing to earn much much low rates, i mean, as a student, u can't charge high rates if u are waiting for results (O/A levels) right? just accept low rates, gai some teaching experience and maybe consider a career as a teacher. this is my dream, to give students who aspire to be teachers an avenue to teach, arn some pocket money and not always ask their parents for money. ok, my stand is that if u can afford it, try not to ask money from ur parents, this is why i had to pay for my A levels, cos i could afford it, thus i want to instill the spirit of independence among these students, that's my aim, my dream :)

3. this dream was made when i watching those celeb volunteer shows on channel U during 2 years ago, if i'm not wrong. i want to be a volunteer, but to be a teacher, to teach children in poverty-stricken areas in OTHER COUNTRIES, to try to rebuild these ppl's lives. education is very important, and everyone should undergo education, ppl in poverty-stricken areas really need education, and if the kids can get educated, they could grow up to become useful ppl and bring their area out of poverty :) i know it amy sound very far-fetched and possibly over-generalisation, but another reason why i made this dream, is because so far, in my 18 years of life, i don really feel accomplished in singapore, ok there are man great ppl i know in s'pore, but yet there is thus emptiness in me, i feel empty, countless failed attempts to seek the special someone, some really sad moments when i grew up, all these amde me want to get out of this country, and if i can get out of here, and help rebuild lives, i could end up feel more accomplished, leading a more fulfilled life :)

hmmm, it feels good to type out these 3 dreams that i want to achieve, and if i ever lost my direction in life, i could refer to this again and read it, and set off to this direction that i fixed upon on myself

dreams are very important, it instills a path in you, u know what u want to do and what u need to do in order to achieve your dreams, without dreams, ur life will really be an empty shell, no substance :)

and i believe, come one day, these 3 dreams (and maybe more dreams when i grow up) will all be fulfilled, and will be able to type about how i managed to fulfill my dreams :)

2010-12-13T21:51:00.002+08:00

hmmm, i just have the sudden urge to blog, and i think it will end up in a once in a month blog post

so it's been 2 weeks since the end of a levels, and these 2 weeks have been rather eventful, although most of the time am still rotting at home. yeah, all i wanted is just a job that i can work for in the month of december, and hopefully i can land the relief teaching job next jan, and then go army in feb 10 :(

haix, army, maybe it is not as bad as we think, but then again, it's really subjective right. all i know is that one must not be a saboh king, and just don make enemies with ppl, saying goes, one more friend is better than one more enemy :)

during these 2 weeks, did some nice things, played soccer with some ajcians, attended 4/5 outing, where initially the 4/5 outing is almost a 4-5 ppl outing :(

yesterday had dinner with mr soh, and all the knowledge he imparted is very funny and useful, all the army stories (well, most of the talking was on NS), we talked about some other topics, chinese, harry potter, marking of papers, teaching, mr soh's so-called 'experience' in jail and so on :)

i really need something to do to keep me occupied, maybe applying for this temp cashier job that i am looking at right now :)

and today was a torturous day, today started with me walking from my house to naval base sec sch, actually, walking to the sch is no kicks, walking to the entrance is so tiring :( it's like, i see the sch, and i don know where's their entrance, so i ahd to walk and walk, and because i very stingy and want save on transport, i walked from naval base to chung cheng (branch) and from there to orchid park, then took 811 and followed by 804 to northbrooks, and then backtracked to north view, then took 804 back to bus interchange and took 800 to ahmad ibrahim, and took 800 again to yishun sec, then walked home

and the total time spent in the 7 schools is much much lesser than the traveling time, cos for every school, it's just go to their GO, and fill up some particulars and this took at most 5 minutes, some schools need fill up the visitor's arrival book, but all in all i think i spent a total of 1 hour at the schools, 30 minutes having lunch and 1 hour and 50 minutes walking and taking the bus, and all i hope is to get the job :) just any one school will do :)

end of post, next time, i'm gonna talk about dreams :)

2010-11-13T23:23:00.003+08:00

after a long long time off from blogging, i should update this piece of rotting page once in a while

so far:

a levels have been ok ok lor, chem paper 3, to me, is actually an ok paper, it's not that difficult as what people say, but i don know why i just can't do some parts, some answers i only knew after i thought about it, after the exams :(

GP, HAHAHAHAHAHA, so i repeat my routine of going to a gp exam UNPREPARED at all, and i think essay screwed up a bit :( compre was actually not bad cos didn't fall asleep like i used to, and passage about food, so i found it interesting, but yet, the questions are not fun at all :( so, see how la :)

MATH, up till now i insist on my opinion that math IS TOO EASY FOR AN A LEVEL PAPER, no offence, but that paper is not even a thinking paper at all, if a person who is weak in math attempt this paper, he/she amay find it easy, because there are very few thinking parts at all, it's all standard stuff, no extensions, no 'hence, ...' parts, no applications, it's just like 2007 paper, wonder what was the cutoff forA during that year

i would rather have a paper that is harder than this piece of crap (preferably lower than AJ standard), but oh well, i think i am safe, but what about others, i really want all my friends to get A for math, a subject where A is an achievable object, but right now, a careless mistake or ur standard in the paper 1 is the deciding factor(s) :(

and i think i getting a cold :(

haix, i still have 2+ subjects to go, please spare me :)

TO ANYONE READING THIS (WHO HAS A LEVELS):

ALL THE BEST, DON'T EVER GIVE UP RIGHT NOW, IF NOT U ARE NO LONGER A FRIEND OF MINE, I HATE QUITTERS, AND HENCEFORTH, WE SHOULD ALL PERSERVERE, AND ACHIEVE GOOD GRADES TOGETHER

together, we shall soar as one :)

2010-10-10T22:20:00.002+08:00

alright, gonna blog now before i go chiong essay :)

Essay topic : ‘The idolatry of sports celebrities is undesirable.’ Discuss.

Haha, it's a sports topic, so i'm determined to get a high grade :)

haha, results :)/:(

H2:
Physics C
Chem B
Math A

H1:
GP D
Econs U

haix, i tried damn hard for econs liao, and i expected at least a raw score of 30, alas, raw score 22, and aj econs moderate by multiplier of 1.5 !@#$%^& What the heck la, multiply alr still fail :(

i am still very against the idea of moderation, ok, i benefited in the past, but that's a minority. come on ppl. u know what moderation can do, O levels is alr a gd lesson to us, when the Chem and math A1 cutoff points were jacked up like crazy. and now, aj econs mod by 1.5, ok la, maybe passing rate was negligible, then so be it lor, it shld only serve as a lesson for us and make us reflect on our mistakes. come on, with moderation do u think u deserve the grade u get? maybe i'm saying these because i didn't benefit from moderation at all, fine, if i appear biased then ignore my comments, but overall, moderation just makes the A grade so not exclusive anymore. AJ moderate math marks by +6 (at least not multiplier) and the no. of As increase by like 5 times!!! (I think it's from 4 to about 20, maybe 16-20) If so, think about how the 4 ppl feel, when so many ppl got B promote to A, and make their hard work go to waste, ok, maybe i do sound biased again, cos i'm one of the 4 that got A, but i really felt that the value of A depreciated, 6 marks leh, that means 64 can get A alr, 6 marks out of 100 meant 12 marks out of the 2 papers combined, what the heck, so many marks, i really felt pissed

ok, lets calm down, the previous para seemed rather biased, but it's purely my view. but i really wonder if other schs moderate like how my sch does???

ok, i'm really taking my own swee time, i need to do work, ok, this post shall end now, shall continue soon :)

I HATE MODERATION :(

2010-09-29T21:25:00.004+08:00

yeah, i'm backkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk :)

haha, prelims were ok ok la, at least i've studied, and i can't regret my performance.

right now haven get back all results, but so far haven't fail, that's because econs haven get back, once that comes, HAHA+GG :)

u will just get the feeling that u've studied all the content before, but for some unknown reason u will just forget everything and re-read and re-read until u sian. well, this has been happening to me :(

will blog about the after results reflections soon, when i get all the results back :(
most probably by next mon, getting back econs that day :) haha, gg liao :)

and i seriously need to find the fire in me that was present before prelims, shit la, after prelims like shag liao, all powers lost, but luckily, right now, my math will become untouchable for a little while, cos i can safely put that aside for a while, my sciences need catching up to reach the same level like math, and gp, gotta try to go for more conusltations, econs, haix, just try my best ba :(

gotta set targets, next post perhaps :)

and mom just dropped bombshell before dinner

she wants me to work during dec, although i really don feel like doing anything during dec and just wan to play and play :)

mom needs the money, and she wants me to work to earn money, apparently, she needs a 4-figure sum, haix, as a son, it feels bad when u can't do anything to help :(

but what if i suay suay go army ths dec, oh well, in a sense problem is solved as i would be gone and be in army. but i hope not la, cos i wanna teach next year.

Please let my enlistment be next year, pretty please....... :)

if i really do work during dec, maybe, maybe, and maybe, provided if there's a 4/5 outing this dec, i can't come, what if outing clash with work. If this happens, then it would make my previous entries look so hypocritical :( haix....

钱虽然不是万能的,但没有钱是万万不能 :(

2010-09-10T22:21:00.002+08:00

argh, i know i haven been blogging

and it's not because i am studying crazily, i still use the com regularly, but just lazy to blog

cos i can practically blog the past 4 days i one para, cos they are the same :(

mon-thur

wake up -> play a bit of DS -> eat bread with peanut butter -> study till lunch time -> eat chicken rice -> read newpaper and play DS and watch TV till 3 -> study till dinner -> eat dinner -> watch TV and read newspaper -> study till i get to use the com -> watch digimon shows on youtube, facebooking -> study till i tired -> goodnight :)

this happened for the past 4 days, sian ttm i know, but i think i am 60% ready for prelims, but i really nervous leh, a lot of things depend on this prelims, please let me do well...... :)

and i finally completed the digimon shows today :) after 50 episodes, i can start a new series this dec hols, after the horrifying A levels :(

i have grand targets for this prelims, ad i am not going to disappoint myself like i did for mid years :)

JIAYOU :)

只要我说我办得到,我一定办得到
对自己有信心,肯定自己的努力
自我催眠, 加油!!!
大家, 不要放弃,坚持到底
不要气馁,打倒心魔
考试只是一个关卡,你是可以过关的
不要在让我看到任何"我不行"类似的句子
因为我们都是人,没有什么是难得倒我们的 :)

2010-09-01T21:06:00.002+08:00

gonna do some blogging now while waiting for my videos to load :)

celebrated teacher's day in sch yesterday :) and i enjoyed myself, except for aces day part, the rest of the day was great, but unfortunately not awesome. was fun but not unforgettable. -_-

yesterday started with aces day, dancing to sorry sorry, lame la, at least get a newer song la. anw, i didn't really dance, who would, only the center block ppl enjoyed themselve, so, yeah -_-

then is performance time, and i enjoyed the performances, but not too a large extent. because, the talent that we ajcians saw were the same old talents. no offence, u ppl are good, but it's always the same old ppl. ok, i know that this performance is a volunteer basis, well, maybe it's just me, cause just saw these talents perform like a month ago, so, like same old thing -_-

i hope the teachers like the frames 0109 did, especially jean lee, my chem teacher. cos i was involved in her frame, and i hope she felt touched

then went back to amkss, sadly, not even 1/4 of 4/5 made it, and i don wan't to know why, cos there's no point in knowing. i really don understand, i already showed my displeasure so openly, and still no response, haix, i give up liao la, maybe i had a false impression 2 years ago :(

went popeye for lunch later with zong you, xiu wei, hong ye, winston and kai yuan. after that, drank koi, and homed

then was a whole day of slacking, and a bit of distress towards the night, family problems again, but i think solved already, the future looks good... :)

today 1/9/2010

study study study did tj math paper 2, did radioactivity tutorial (first time doing) and read nitrogen compounds notes again :) so i did chem, phy and math, later my read inflation notes and attempt compre, see how la :)

but i woke up late today, if not got more study time :(

will the year end outing even happen?
ppl said wait til end of years, wait till after A levels
well i think that's rubbish
when u answer, please think seriously whether u can make it
i can predict what will happen now...
"sorry, i need to work"
"sorry, not free"
ok first reason can be accepted, but if ppl were to say the second reason
i will curse them
it's just an outing, so hard meh???
maybe, it's just that hard :(

2010-08-27T23:27:00.002+08:00

hmmm, study...

so far have been studying after sch every day, cos truncated timetable started, and has lots of free time, anw, if go home i would most likely play ds or sleep, so i rather study...

but unfortunately, the effectiveness has been limited :( must learn to stay focused :)

stick to my study plan, and everything will work out, i hope :)

and my ankle's getting better, seriously :) i can feel it, can move about like before, but must rest more la :)

and i just realised, as much as i wanted to blog, life isreally just study study and study, nothing to blog la :(

but teacher's day celebration is coming, can't wait. cos i wan to see the teachers' face when 0109 gives them the frames :) FRAMES FTW :)

and i can't wait to go back to amkss :) god knows when would i ever have the chance to go back there again, must go back, talk some cock, and hope to catch up with 4/5 ppl

but i think i can foresee what will happen !@#$%^&*

"sorry, not free"
"don feel like going back, wan study"
"alr have appointments with friends"

somehow, these 3 comments would most likely be heard by me on tue, it's just a gut feeling, i thought it IS a pact to soar as one, well, IS -> WAS liao

so screwed up :(

if they know i changed to my current persona, the beng, would they believe?

maybe a string of hokkien will do the trick

anw, gonna do counting next tue, this time, i think 2 hands and 2 legs will do it :(

WHERE'S THE LOYALTY AND THE BOND!!! :(

2010-08-21T23:48:00.002+08:00

ok, followers of my blog shld know that my blog is words-only...

hmmm, i should have changed that policy, cos if i did i would have taken pics of the buffet i went

went to eat buffet to celebrate pa's 44th bday. the buffet is at ponggol and is very ulu ulu de, sakura buffet.

and their food there is damn shiok ah, i could have finished off all their sushi, but needed to make room for their meat :)

cos that place is non-halal, so got pork, and their pork satay is nice to eat, compared to beef satay, pork wins hands down

and they got bak kwa also leh, although the texture loses out to xiang wei and mei zhen xiang, the flavour is on par leh, shiok :)

and their sushi uses something that i either rarely eat or never see before, so, i ate a considerable amount of sushi, although i should have eat less, i wanted to eat more la :)

their ice cream isn;t that bad either, prawns not bad, skewered sotong is ok ok, fish meat is good to eat.

aiyah, should have taken images,now can only use memory, sian... :(

then today is to coop myself at home. study and do housework

and with my injured ankle, it isn't that easy to do vacuuming today, couldn't squat that easily, so took some extra time.

i wish my ankle can recover soon, can walk, can stand on left leg, but will still hurt a bit la, sian :(

dinner was great, went to khatib to eat and ate my favourite yong tau foo there :)

reason why i like their yong tau foo is because they separate the fried stuff from the soup stuff, and i like their fried stuff anyway, taste good, thought their soup is ordinary, this nice act and their fried food just earned them a satisfied customer :) cos many ppl would just lump all the stuff with the soup and their fried stuff will just become soggy, so, gonna eat there soon :)

gonna wake up early tmr to study first, wasted too much time today, study is impt now

cos i just received the email from the teaching internship programme, the registration wanted to look at the prelim results, so, must study even harder to make it to the internship programme

but i worry, even though they extended the sign-up-by date, i scared i won't get back my prelim results by 10 oct, if that happens, screw aj man

but i think won't happen la, aj won't be that slow :)

but sad thing is that amkss and ajc not in the internship programme, so i won't get to teach in there if i get selected :(

i really want to teach at my alma maters

so, gotta work damn hard, for my future :)

i think... 我相通了......

2010-08-18T22:30:00.003+08:00

haix..... i'm now a sick bird...

sprained my ankle during pe, thanks to the track, cos they have some metallic something, i don know what is it, and i sort of like tripped over it. it wasn't painful at first, i could still play handball, run a bit, walk normally, go gym.

then after that, it just got worse, damn pain, swell liao, ppl see alr say i got te kah, sian la, now i walk will pain a bit... :(

my ah pa then go and perform 跌打 on me, i think it's written like that la, and i screamed like hell la, so damn pain, tried to endure and i just cannot make it... :(

and handball was terrible today, scored 0, lost 6-0 in the opening, what a stinking session

so i need to recover and play next week real soon, given my current ankle prob, next week's gym session would most likely be cancelled, hope i can go for next wed's self imposed session. :)

yeah, i feel that my upper body strength is getting better, i can pull heavier weights, the bench press is getting better, now i just need to work on leg strength and muscles (arm and stomach) to finish it up

by then, my goal would have been achieved, and it would be something i always wanted... :)

after sch also went to make the photo frame for jean lee

and we had a rather fun time, ok, my group consists of yibin, yun hui, elvina, amirah, ying yun, me and jia min, ok la, last one no count, haha :)

but seriously, when we really went to work, it was a good session, the ideas just kept on flowing, the sincerity is there, the humour isn't lacking, and i think although jean lee's other class may not want to take the job of doing her photo frame, well, i don care, that class pissed me off for a while, cos i initially thought that every class has to do 3 frames, and when yibin told me that our class is the exception, i just felt pissed for a while, stress on the 'a while' after all, i don mind doing for jean lee, she is a good chem teacher, she made my chem good, though i normally tend to doze off, ooops :)

so, i hope the frame could come out well, and she would be happy to see what we wrote, haha :)

and my ah ma said that everyday will have screaming session, PAIN AH!!!!! :(

facebook tells many stories, all the info could be threaded into one. it isn't wise to say so much...

2010-08-17T23:00:00.002+08:00

yeah, had some personal mini achievements recently

started from monday, no. of chin ups improved by 1, now stands at 6, ok la, some more to hit my target of at least 8, but i feel good about it can liao la, i feel that the gym sessions are working out :)

unfortunately, no one cleared napfa during monday, so, i just wan to say that ultimately, it lies within oneself whether u wan to clear napfa, if u wan it, u first have to believe in it, and work for it. i have to work like crazy la, and that's the damn truth

gonna go gym tmr, either after pe or before gp timed prac, what about both? i don mind leh :)

i just realised the hatred for u and against myself subsided
i now feel rather neutral liao
then the hatred for my failure has also subsided
now i don care liao
the plane need not make its landing anymore
i'm ok le
i think...

anyway, i can't wait for pe tmr

can play handball. and ppl shld see me play handball, it's like during 4/5 captainball days, an arena where 4/5 ppl could show off... :)

gonna be top scorer tmr :)

seriously, i need to stop wasting all the free time i usually have

I GOTTA START STUDYING, AND THE ENVIRONMENT CANNOT BE AN EXCUSE WHY I CAN'T STUDY!!!

2010-08-15T00:45:00.002+08:00

oh my gosh, haven't been updating for days liao :(

but life recently is still ok la, not so hiong like previous weeks

and i think my form could be peaking soon

gonna do what i always wanted to do

futuretopstudent

and when i do that, treats to anyone i deem fit :)

cos today's productive level is so-so

read econs and felt sibei pek chek, cos i was reading how to measure economic growth and SOL, and like the same thing throughout leh, especially the behind portions, so, sian la

but that notes still understandable, so ok

morning did physics, finished up waves, oscillations and superposition

and i think those 3 chapters will still screw me up, so, hope for the best when prelims come

doing top jc prelim papers only made me feel more worried and more kan chiong

so, gonna do my best and not let my blog down... :)

and went gym on both thur and fri

ok la, i think i not hiong yet

when truncate timetable starts, i'm gonna make it 3 times a week, mon wed and fri

in fact, between phy extra lessons and gym, i pick the latter

cos i don wan my breaks to be taken away

i plan my own schedule, my life

it's my life......

so, gonna sleep soon, have to work tmr, everytime i go there i would tell myself, time to be positive and do my best

although the outcome may not be ideal, i promise to see out my contract (ok la, no contract actually) and teach them till their exams their over

that means i end in oct, and while ppl spend their sundays preparing for A levels, i spend it preparing for p5 and sec 2 exams, so, hope i can strike the balance, and end p everyone scores well :)

actually, i utilise time well, spend the in between waiting time to go study, so, it's a good thing

i'm trying very hard to delete u from my mind
but ppl always mention about it, and the memories resurface
argh, i hate myself
why is it so hard to forget, so easy to remember
i wish i can forget some nightmares permanently
there were so many mistakes in life, so many wrong moves
so many horrifying experiences, so many failures
i want to delete them all
yet i can't, they will only be there to serve as life's lessons
there are 2 sides to a coin
u may see it this way
i see it the another way
so i shld start learning from past's mistakes
and create a better future
although ultimately i still wish for time travel
and redirect my life like the way i wanted it
re-script, re-film
3,2,1 time's up
stop living in ur fantasies
and face the real world
-_-

by the way- TNA wrestling rocks

support motor city machine guns!!! :)

best tag team in the business :)

2010-08-09T20:23:00.002+08:00

hmm, so i changed the image that i've been using for 2+ years, thanks to that picture for such long service, now this new picture gonna last for some while, before i go search for better ones!! :)

looking for nice images is not the problem, trying to fond the right one is the problem, cos i don wan change the skin, thus i need an image that suits the skin :)

and tada :)

so i really love Chelsea FC a lot :) nothing's gonna change my love for u :)

so what we lost the com shield, relax la, gonna win many trophies this season :)

i know we can :)

so i did studying these past days, haix if it was last year i would have wanted to go out and play, now have to study at home -_-

finished econs case study today, need to finish essay soon !!!

and need to catch up with my J1 physics :/ if not die liao :(

tmr gonna do lots of stuff, and i miss sch (again...)

oh no, the feeling's back
the feeling of loneliness is beginning to creep back
maybe i miss 0109
miss the fun things i could do everyday
all the rubbish we could talk
but come this wed, i must apologise
i planned liao
morning, when she reach sch and sits down, i'm gonna just straightaway say sorry for the use of such abusive language
wel, what could i say, say it's ur fault
nah, i think it's mine...
but is this the right way
i hope she forgives me for such ah beng ways
hope for the best......

突然间, 我觉得你很可恶
是我的问题...
看你身边的人与评语
恨不得想把你们干掉 (wanted to write something more sadistic)
原来, 友谊是不值钱的
但是
友谊是我最在乎的东西
一天是朋友, 一身是朋友
所以
年底计划, 将会重新考虑
该不该写呢? 考虑一下吧...
但是
要是我不认识你就好了
少麻烦, 少痛苦

i hope u ppl know what the long gaps in between paragraphs mean
it means a new story, a new issue to talk about
so does fonts in italic

SCARY DREAM!!! -_-

2010-08-06T22:46:00.004+08:00

OMG!!!!!!!!!!! 100th post!!!! :)

can't believe that my blog can last till the 100th post, when ppl can take very fast to reach this landmark, i took like years.... :(

hmmm, ytd night had a very strange dream... a scary dream

it was an outing, class outing with 0109, ok la, more of a clique outing cos only they appeared in my dream, then we had to go somewhere, then while getting on as car or something i needed to go somewhere else, so i left for a while, but when i went back there they were alr on the car, looking at me and just drove off!!!!

in that dream it was scary as they were looking at me with no expression. somehow, i think shouted them to wait for me. i ran after them for about 10 secs and they were gone..... well after that this dream ended, so yeah...

but overall, it was scary leh. when i woke up and thought about this dream, it just felt scary, like feeling alone..... and this feeling is like a negative energy, it saps ur lifeforce away...

but this feeling was really weird, the clique just abandoned me, and it was really weird. loneliness is a scary thing, i don wan that...

so sch today was ok ok la, concert was ok, staje's recital of the speech was ok, though i still don understand why the j1s had to do this??? let me guess, repay your dues... yeah...

teacher's performance ftw la :)

after that, watched salt at amk. hmmmm, i always knew that i am not leadership material, so today was bad as i tried to get things going, but it's like destined to fail leh... -_- but the movie wasn't that bad. although the ending seemed abrupt, i felt that the twist wasn't bad, but it's like trying to cram too many plots into the movie, they shld have ended it earlier, not like that.

watched the movie with the 2 class couples cos wei shun and raymond, the so-called 'gay couple' (sounds damn wrong, i know) cos they share the same bdays, didn't wan to watch. and it felt weird, like the odd one out, great, the guys can show their generosity by paying for another ticket, i just have to fend for myself...

and in the end, i screwed up the whole day cos i failed to apologise for that outburst of words, shit la, ppl pressure me to at least explain myself, how, next opportunity comes next wed, how???

i can't just start with a "hey, i am sorry" right? so weird. so what do i say???
die la, pressured la...

i always say unity is impt, now i am screwing things up...

stupid me... me and my big mouth

so today, i swore not to swear. took me some time to get this statement right after the clique made fun of my language, but i swore not to, and i will try to...

this has been happening some time liao (seperate incidents from above-mentioned)

i was thinking the stupid things i done these past 1 year 8 months

just 1 year ago, i self-proclaim myself to be dead after the screwed up attempt, when i thought it was game over...

but i managed to salvage the friendship in the end, heng ah :)

i was thinking of what people said about my mistakes, my flaws, at first i didn't understand that well, but all of a sudden, this past week, i saw the light. i understood why i failed terribly last year

then i unknowingly thought about this year, when the story just repeated itself again... haix...

marcus told me before le, many told me before le, hmmm, looks like taurus-stubborn... can't be changed

but enough of that, i can't think about that right now, top of the list is how to apologise to her, then next is the study plan this long weekend... many things to do and many notes to read

after this update will most likely go to sleep, muscles aching... don know why...

seriously, this 100th post is like a personal achievement, shld i continue this site??? well, it has been working as i managed to plot out my personal thoughts better. this place is where kenneth=kenneth and not some other equation. i feel myself here, able to pour out all my thought (including this one)

but many ppl's blogs are rotting/private. many blog occasionally, ok to be fair is only recently that i blogged almost frequently, and yet is also this study period that many stopped blogging...

i oppose the trend,so it's time to change...

last note, gonna ensure i go aj gym regularly, if not i can say byebye to pullups and a good body...

JIAYOU!!!!!!!!!!! :D

2010-08-05T23:00:00.002+08:00

ok, lets just be honest with myself

today started really bad, real bad, i don know what happened to me, but i really felt that maybe that comment shldn't have been made, cos i felt that i wasn't being loud.

great, now i have to think about how to explain myself, when i thought about it, now i think that it's more of my fault, but why am i thinking this way??? i didn't feel that way when i said those 'words'. just felt that maybe that comment shldn't have been said, now leh, i don know what to do liao. say sorry? how??? like a bit awkward leh.

so how the heck do i say sorry to people, when it is me that had hurt them seriously, especially girls, i think the words just cannot come out leh. great, how ironic, people expect me to say everything, now i'm stuck at 3 words. I AM SORRY......

hopeless.........

i shld stop swearing liao, i admit, i was willing to be influenced, but now i have to be firm, i gotta cut down on swearing... it's like a bad habit, a drug, easy to get addicted, difficult to shake off... deadly

this future teacher here gotta stop now, needs to be firm, repent...

JIAYOU...

ok, so about sch, thursdays now shld be my favourite days, no lectures, have meaningful tutorials, haha, partly because today's tutorials don have physics, if not thursdays' value will plummet. anyway, though we have gp lectures, now gp lectures for me is like tutorials, due to banding

and today's gp was so disappointing!!! ok, maybe expectations were raised due to previous 2 weeks of enriching lessons, and when 0109 guys warned me about that teacher's lame lessons, i still harbored a faint glimmer of hope that the lesson will be meaningful, as it turns out, the lame jokes made > the effectiveness of the lesson. i wanted to learn compre skills lor, now leh, have to resort to remembering all the things that choy said... haix, wished i had the study mood months ago and not like, recently. regrets...

econs remedial was gg, 1/20 for concept test, haha, wel, i was sleepy, lazy. but i will study hard, serious, right now, i target to complete either the case study or the essay by this weekend, hope i can tahan!!!

tmr half day, hope i can watch the last airbender, actually, i would be willing to waste the money to see how badly screwed up the movie is. ok, u will have high expectations due to the wonderness of the show, so will i get disappointed, i hope not.

come this sat, CHELSEA VS MAN U for com shield, well, go chelsea, start the season with a shield!!! :)

something i wanted to put here but i keep forgetting :)

CHELSEA 2010-2011 :)

No. Country Position Name
1 Czech Republic GK Petr Čech
2 Serbia DF Branislav Ivanović
3 England DF Ashley Cole
5 Ghana MF Michael Essien
6 Portugal DF Ricardo Carvalho
8 England MF Frank Lampard (vice-captain)
9 Argentina FW Franco Di Santo
10 Israel MF Yossi Benayoun
11 Côte d'Ivoire FW Didier Drogba
12 Nigeria MF John Obi Mikel
15 France MF Florent Malouda
16 England MF Scott Sinclair
17 Portugal DF José Bosingwa
18 Russia MF Yuri Zhirkov
19 Portugal DF Paulo Ferreira
20 Portugal MF Deco
21 Côte d'Ivoire FW Salomon Kalou
22 England GK Ross Turnbull
23 England FW Daniel Sturridge
24 Serbia MF Nemanja Matić
26 England DF John Terry (captain)
33 Brazil DF Alex
39 France FW Nicolas Anelka
40 Portugal GK Henrique Hilário
41 England DF Sam Hutchinson
42 England DF Michael Mancienne
43 Netherlands DF Jeffrey Bruma
44 France FW Gaël Kakuta
45 Italy FW Fabio Borini
52 Netherlands DF Patrick van Aanholt

Not forgetting Ramires who's gonna come soon!!!

GO Chelsea!!! win as many trophies as possible

i wanna see the champions league triumph next year, may!!!

ok, maybe i shld change my blogskin soon, instead of 2004's triumph, i shld change it to 2010's triumph!!! :)

gonna ask meiyen to help me, after all, she was the one that designed this :)

每次看到你说你会孤独, 说没了他你会寂寞
我只能想, 要是我耐心一点, 一切就不一样了.
以上内容与你有共鸣
我能够拿出勇气, 跟你亲口说声对不起吗?
每次我都在想, 要是我听从朋友的劝告, 慢慢来
现在我应该会很开开心心的过活吧?
会修身养性, 会过的安康
自作孽就是自作孽
我本来想成为一个能够陪在你身边的一个人
看似简简单单的一个任务, 竟然会被我摧毁
能够默默的关心你, 本来是我的荣幸
现在呢?
失望....
是对自己失望.....

2010-08-02T21:47:00.002+08:00

heyhey, today is a good day, cos yours truly just cleared napfa and can officially skip pe from now on

but i did counted, i only have one afternoon pe left. only get to skip one, sian...

anyway, i did my pull ups under lim kok wee leh, if he say i can means i really can lor, haha,so don say i cheated or something!!!

anyway, it feels damn good to finally cleared napfa, on my bday i still can't do one, now i can do 5, in nearly 3 months i improved by 5, yeah!!! thanks to everyone who encouraged me all the way :)

today at sch:

gp: teacher didn't come, so just did work as usual

econs lec: wah, this one is so what the heck man, it started ok, just listening and copying, then another teacher too over, talked about trade and bop, and all of a sudden, while she was explaining what makes up BOP, she just said, this is especially for 0109 who do not know what makes up BOP, wah, the teacher zai lor, say the whole class until like that, come on la, top in econs is in our class leh, so we can't be that bad ma ._.

chem was also damn paiseh, also originally just listening, then i just asked the teacher why he skipped one part, then he said this qn has been gone thru so many times, when u study must 温故知新, wah, kena suanned so badly, he win liao lor.

phy was lalala session, i just read lec notes on my own, sian la, seriously, my physics how!!! and there's going to be a timed prac this wed, but i'm going to use donate blood as an excuse, heck care la!!! :)

phy lab was just like that, did planning and imprved by a little bit.

but today because i cleared napfa, i am so damn happy!!! gonna be happy for quite some time lor!!!

and i realised, i haven been feeling emo for these past few days!!! hmmm, it feels good to be happy everyday!!! :D

gonna stay happy like this till As, hope i can sustain this mood throughout!!! :D

2010-08-01T22:35:00.002+08:00

hmmm, jason told me to sleep early tonight, said it will make a difference whether i can pass napfa or not

but i have been slacking on the com too much, and wasted my afternoon playing TNA on my DS, sian.. i shld have studied...

and no, i would not lock my ds up (for anyone who's thinking of that right now) :)

this morning overslept by about 20 mins, reached ganesh's house late, so started late lor. then zong you came cos he didn't come ytd, and thus we left tgt

and today i really thought about this qn, "should i stop giving tuition and use this time to study???"

i really don know the ans leh. right now, this tuition job gives me a stable monthly income, though it's not much la, but i used that to pay for my A levels. and if i really stop giving them tuition now, who's going to ensure they pass their final years?

alr i have to find new tutors for them next year, after i go in army, they need new teachers.

and if i don give tuition, chances are, i may play my ds instead, or daydream, but i think i would still study la

previously i had 2 days off, and i used tose 2 days to study felt accomplished that 2 days, and with my study mode back, i think i would study instead

so how??? to work or not to work???

anyway, gonna go offline soon, will most likely do some work first before i go to sleep

i wan to pass napfa tmr badly, i can't wait for tmr, i hope everything goes well...

please bless me strength :)

study study study!!!

2010-07-31T23:52:00.002+08:00

All i can say is that, I HAD FUN TODAY

to all the J1s who made this day possible, thanks for everything, without u all, this day would not have been possible!!! thanks for all the effort u guys put in!!! :)

so this day started weirdly, i wanted to go intense studying in the morning, but failed ttm :( at least i did something constructive, attempted chem paper 2 and did vectors qns for math lec, though i don see the point in doing cos the lecture's by some teacher i don like, and i think he cmi, he lecture me vectors and complex numbers, i end up understanding nothing, lucky got ppl like ms bok to help me thru :)

staje farewell started great, cos we started by eating!!! been waiting for this day for a long long time, when we j2s did this last year, i wondered what will happen to mine, i would have never expected today to be so freaking fun!!! :)

eat, then gave out my cards, though i feel damn paiseh about it, cos meiyen gave clear folders, compare my cards to them, i felt a bit pasiseh lor, haha, but still gave it out in the end :)

played charades, and i owned my qn, i needed to act out the movie despicable me, all i need to do was to do what the trailer has, and the j2s just took 1 second to guess it out, i owned the lot!!! :)

then the j1s gave something also, love it, it's a lot of goodies and with a card, best of all, the card is in orange!!! yeah :)

played this game called 'I've never done that before', well, today is the first time i played that, and what i said that i nvr done before can't be said here, haha :)

went home in shannon's car, thanks for giving me a ride, thanks :)

need to sleep early, gonna have to work tmr :)

today's events are heavily summarised, i know, but what's impt is that these memories will last forever, i hope it last forever

and what i really felt was that during the time when melissa and jia yin gave me the present, i almost cried, cos i was rather touched by their efforts, i was touched by the J1s efforts :) thanks seriously!!! love u all!!! :)

i wish all the J1s all the best in the promos and pw, all the J2s the best in As

lets all work hard and make staje proud!!!!!

JIAYOU!!!!!! :)

2010-07-30T22:46:00.002+08:00

hmmmmmm......

so i went to tried chin-ups today at the easiest bar, the shortest one la, and i'm still stuck at 4 :(

tried to go for a 5, but at most is a half, and 4 1/2 does not round up to 5. :(

but what was nice is that even if u fail napfa, u will make some friends, those that fail la, and they will support u till the end.

well, i also support a lot of ppl lor, and when i think about it, the pe dept was right in their success stories, and i hope to be a success story too...

i wanna clear napfa and treat my friends to drinks!!! :)

originally, i would have offered to treat u if i passed napfa, but right now, given my cowardness,i think is no hope liao la, but ur words of encouragement did helped me, helped to motivate me a bit, so, thanks, from the bottom of my heart :)

can't wait for tmr :)
can't wait to see my juniors
i hope my phone can take as many pics as possible
i wan the last memories to be as awesome as possible... :) :) :)
love STAJEWORKS :D

说我不会想你, 是骗人的. 说我忘了你, 是在骗自己.
每次看到你, 只会想到自己的无能.
我很想说你好, 但我不敢.
眼前有一个机会, 我却选择避开.
我只能说自己是白痴.
我还能翻身吗?

2010-07-29T22:01:00.002+08:00

hmmm, gonna blog about what happened these past 2 days :)

yesterday (wednesday):

had career fair day, well, to be honest, the university talks were boring, well, partly helped by the not switched on aircons in the audi, thanks a lot, now who has the mood to listen... -_- and for me, it's always the same, every uni talk i heard so far never talks about NIE, so, i switched off, as usual

but after the talks, went for respective career talks, NIE talk was a joke, i thought is a talk on school teachers, it turns out that it was on preschool teaching, nothing wrong with that, but i don like it

the MOE talk is seriously the talk that i had wanted for the past 3 years, now i really know the pathway to my future career. and yes, don't be shocked, i wan to become a teacher, it;s the satisfaction that u get when u taught someone, when u know that u had made a difference in others, i think i'm ready, i'm firm. I WANT TO BECOME A TEACHER, and i think i won't change that target for now

thus, signed up for some teaching internship programme that may happen next year, in JAN, and that means i cannot fail napfa now, if not my internship will be pushed back by 2 years, argh, i don wan that -_-

thus, my path currently is:
a levels -> Internship (hopefully) -> NS -> A uni degree -> NIE -> Teaching!!!! :)

thus, i wondered, what degree should i take in UNI? I think i may take business, it's like the back up option for me, and shld one day i decide to open a tuition centre on my own, this business knowledge may help me

THUS, I NEED TO START STUDY NOW!!! I NEED THE GOOD GRADES TO KEEP THE OPTIONS AVAILABLE. maybe i could take something else other than business, but i need good grades

luckily for me, the study mode is back, 0109 is now serious, my clique is getting serious, ok, rephrase, the guys are getting serious, the girls are alr serious, and looking at how we are so on when it comes to studying after sch, i just wanna say, let's go 0109, gonna fight on all the way (though a littlebit of fun in between is still important :D)

however, i will not lock away my ds, as suggested by some. DS=My 'wife', i don wan a divorce :)

today (thursday):

so it was lessons as usual, today is tutorial day, and for the first time, today seems to be the first time that a thursday has been so meaningful. it feels good to have done the econs work seriously and u listened seriously, although my work was done badly, screwed up the case study :( 5/17!!! sian la, lowest in class so far, hoping the essay helps me boost my grade

and GP was fun again. like Bridge 1 lectures now. at least i feel that it is meaningful for me and i'm learning something

chem and math was as usual, good. when u have 2 senior teachers who are so damn good, first u will feel damn shiok, but then, u will wan to do well so as not to let them down, they had made a difference with their good teaching, i wan the As to repay them...

gonna study econs test later, though i know the qn liao, one point to note is that econs is the only subject that u can fail even if it is an open book test. hope i don end up like yesterday. say what wan to start work at 10 plus, end up started only at 2320 and ended at 0050, sian...

加油, 我行的!!! 只要肯努力,就一定会有回报. 现在努力还不迟,好过你现在还在半梦半醒的状态, 是时候该读书了. 不能象几个月前的我, 不做功课, 不专心, 不上进. 豁出去!!! :)

2010-07-26T21:54:00.003+08:00

haix...

took napfa retest again, this time, i did better leh, 4 chin ups, but only one more to go, and i totally sian-ed diao when i couldn't go up for the final pull, sian la,

actually, (this is a fact), aj ppl are nice, the students are nice, and it is damn easy to form brotherhoods, after all, yours truly is the chairman of the napfa failures group, and i hope to step down soon, go for it!!! JIAYOU

AND I'M GONNA SAY IT HERE, IF I PASS NAPFA, I WILL TREAT THE NEXT 2O PPL TO DRINKS THAT CONGRATULATE ME FOR MY PASSING. COS I'M HAPPY. I ONCE THOUGHT THAT PULL UPS ARE IMPOSSIBLE FOR ME, WHEN I CAN PULL UP THAT FIRST PULL, I WAS SO SHOCKED+ELATED!!! NOW, I'M JUST ONE MORE AWAY FROM MY GOAL

THEREFORE...

gonna spam my gym visits now, tmr gonna go gym, i wan to clear this by next week, i can smell success

to be true to myself, during the initial stages, u were partly the motivation for me to pass my napfa, u said before, better not go in early, i still remembered, and i myself also don wan go in early... so, yeah, GO FOR IT!!!

so lessons wise, today rain in the morning, wanted to sleep for the whole day, but cannot... :(

and phy was really awol, at first, i was paying attention, then i started playing with my GC, forming all sorts of patterns with my friend, so, end up still not paying attention to physics...

die la, if this goes up, my phy die liao, but phy is like so cheem, i just cannot remember the past topics not like chem, which is much easier for me...

so, gonna work hard now, maybe shld revise phy now, cos its like, long long forgotten liao... -_-

gonna work damn hard!!! JIAYOU!!!

P.S. CAN'T WAIT FOR THIS SATURDAY!!! THIS SAT MAY WELL BE THE BEST DAY EVER DURING MY TIME AS AN AJCIAN!!! :)

2010-07-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

haix, i have lots of work to do lor, instead of wasting my time here,

but i have things to type here, i love my blog :)

today: same same lor, give tuition, return home, play ds, eat dinner, use com, do homework, sleep later

WHAT A MUNDANE SUNDAY, SO PREDICTABLE, SO STANDARD, SO NO-LIFE!!!

other ppl's sundays are for fun, my students' still can have fun after my lessons, but my sundays alr half gone liao

hmmm, shld i stop giving tuition, but i have the self-commitment to see them thru their final year exams. if i had stopped, where would my A-level fees come from, i need this income lor, cos i foresee a possible spending spree after As, need the $$$$$$$

right now, sch is so boring, countless revision times pracs that's gonna take away lots of my time!!!!!

i have lots of things not done, and i need the after sch time!!!

there's still the one thing i haven do, something i have to do by the end of AJC life, once i did it, it could mean that i have seen thru everything...

need to do gp work later, gonna give up on phy liao, at most, just read thru and let my mind go AWOL during tmr's lecture :)

do u hate me? i really hate myself now...
i hope it's not referring to me, i'm scared it is
normally ppl say i think too much
hmmm, i hope so, thinking too much normally brings about a good ending for me
please, one opportunity, and i will cash in

2010-07-23T22:42:00.002+08:00

hmmm, shall blog about today...

today first lesson, econs, for once, i thought that time passed by rather faster than usual, usually it's like a torture session for me, haha, maybe because i'm listening seriously today la, at least i did my work before the lesson and was not rushing it like a day before :)

chem lec was doing mcq, ok la, nvr study, just see how lor

phy was normal, planning qn screwed up ttm, 2/12, imba la :)

math lec!!! PISSED TTM!!!!

although ms bok was the lecturer (she makes things clear :D), some idiot(s) dare to hang the pe attire out to dry on the chair, depriving others of a potential seat, worse still, they like no sense of guilt lor, stupid+selfish idiots, wanted to throw their pe attire at them, but don wan to dirty my hands in the process -_- ka ni na, those idiots, ok, i understand why they have to sit in our rows assigned to my class, cos of the restructuring, i understand, but at least don dp something so disgusting la, just leave ur pe attire out there and let everyone see it, lucky no smell, if not i guai lan that idiots ttm liao.

shall not say who these ppl are, cos i scared if i describe them, it may cause a verbal war. even if i am a selfish person, i think i won selfish till the extent of depriving others a seat ba. i may get whacked up la. Hmmm, heng ah, we locals aren't that selfish :)

after sch, celebrated the bdays of july babies. actually is only baby, cos it's just su hui's bday, and gigi has alr left aj, anyway, it didn;t matter, the blueberry cake was a bit small la cannot give teachers, haix -_-, but anyway, thanks for the cake :) it was nice :)

after that, the clique went out to eat, yippee, it's been a long time since the clique went out, long time since we can eat out and talk lots of cock. wish we can have more of these days, maybe can la, cos there will be a lot of days when we stay back for those freaking lec. tests, then got a lot of spare time in between, maybe can...

but i think i cannot go lor, if got chance, i would rather choose to study in sch or go gym just to train myself, i don wan the 2 month holiday in army, i rather imprison myself at home :)

in summary, today not bad la, good mood today, not so emo like last friday... :)

2010-07-22T21:50:00.003+08:00

sometimes, i fantasise to a huge extent, cos i fantasise a lot of things, a lot of scenarios, a lot of what-ifs, just so much till my brain can burst liao

i think about many ppl and start to think about my past...

it seems so wonderful during sec sch, strangely, i think that when i was in amkss 45/08, i seem to be able to confide my troubles to my friends, regardless of male or female friends. right now, i just have the feeling that there is a barrier surrounding me, and i just won't tell everything to ppl around me, it's not their problem, it's my problem. though i talk a lot, it really doesn't mean everything......

thus, one wish of mine is to go back to sec sch life, but seeing how many ppl are enjoying life now (well, that's what i think) not everyone may share the same thought as me...

in the past, whenever i failed, i take the 'i don know what happened' strategy, pretending that nothing has ever happened
right now, maybe i have to resort to this
maybe i shld be just a bit braver, say hi to you during phy lec (or any other time when i see u)
but will u say hi back, maybe u will, but in the very 勉强 manner, then u may just hurry off
or if i sms u, u may just ignore it, or reply also in a 勉强 manner
i seriously wan to pour all my troubles
but my personal barrier is preventing me from doing so
in sec sch, this has nvr been the problem
now, it is...

也许我可以当妳是陌生人,但是一想起妳, 我会感到难过. 一看到妳, 我会感到很无助. 我想鼓起勇气跟妳说话, 但是, 我害怕, 我怕你的反应,会让我更难过.
我真的不想这样, 但是...
妳会知道我的感受吗
也许妳根本都不在乎

对, 应该是这样把, 你(不需要)在乎...

2010-07-19T21:16:00.002+08:00

haix, lets tell myself all and all over again

"I am a loser..."

and again, and again, and again......

nowadays, i keep thinking about u, but so what, everytime i think about how u said that i have made u so suffocated, these 4 words come to my mind everyday. i wish i have lots of courage, enough to make me go up to u, and thrash things out, but that would mean suicide right??? u said it will take some time, but ur replies are, well, dead. compared to the past, which are lively, this saps the motivation to sms u, plus ur fb page, i don wan to end up being the one that pesters u, i really don wan, so, ppl can say it's just a small problem, that's because i nvr told them the big picture. when u don know, it's best not to say...

seriously, now whenever i see u, it really feels like a lot of knives piercing through. i really wan to let u know how i feel, but if i sms u, what if u think i'm pestering u, like a psychotic stalker. i really don know la... it all lies down to knowing ow a girl thinks, but then again, who knows? it's really like a brick wall, and i keep banging my head onto it...

on a side note, i may not say it, but i appreciate ppl who truly care, no matter how small the care is, it's better than nothing.

every year, same old mistake, same old conclusion, same old story, same old sadness, but why is this the saddest so far?

i think, because this time, i've gone all out, but still reached the brick wall and my destiny of being a failure

will u ever get to know, how much i truly care about u
how do i strike the fine balance between being concerned and being a pest???
i really don know......
save me...
may i find this ans, in somewhere i belong
alone... -_-

2010-07-16T22:00:00.002+08:00

hmmm, today...

got back results slip, and it says

GP 56% C
Econs 18% U (:D)
PW B
Chem 54% D
Math 66% B
Phy 48% E

Rank points: 56

haix, shld have done much much better, after looking at the tests papers and my silly mistakes, but i must say, i exceeded expectations for GP, and i'm now in bridge 1, woooooo, and bridge 1 lecture was so exciting, i may now start to look forward to thursday for GP lecture lor, but then again, the teachers say they gonna split the bridge 1 into 4 groups, into groups of about 45-46, and i'm rather excited to see which people i'm group with, preferably with people that i know, and not some weirdos, haha lol

and i played soccer today after pe, as keeper, sian... wished i can play as a defender more, i wan be a better defender

and watched sleague on tv and it was a great match, 7 goals, shiok to the viewers :)

but then again....

as the week comes to a close, i've been doing a lot of thinking recently

seriously, i am someone who always repeat the same mistakes over and over again, that makes me a repeat offender right, and repeat offenders receive heavier and heavier sentences right, so, that means i shld be given the death penalty like, long long time ago liao right, and yet, i'm still alive, what does this mean, this means that i've been living on borrowed time for a long period liao lor, living on time that doesn;t belong to me, and whatever u borrow, u have to return... that includes time.........

seriously, i really hate life now, i;m always screwing things up, i;m always causing great friendships to be in jeopardy, i'm always causing problems for myself, this is simply 自作孽!!! 自作孽是我咎由自取, 不值得同情.

i hate banging my head into the brick wall, knowing that it will hurt, and please, all i wan is a chance, people always tend to keep the chances away from others, come on la, everyone deserves a second chance, right???

i;m starting to resign to the fact that my destiny is true. the outside is noisy, enthu and happy, but i am the greatest pretender alive, being in pretence is perhaps the thing i do best. u pretend to be happy, with nothing going wrong. i've been pretending for so long, it's like a day job......

right now, based on the current situation, there is nothing else worth staying for, having lived on borrowed time, i think it's time to return it. the earth will still revolve even if there is one less person, so, whether i go doesn;t make the difference

because u give me the cold shoulder and avoidance, it just aggravates the wound, and the wound just keeps on getting larger and larger, hurting me more

destiny depicts me to be a loner, evidence supports it... 6 boys in 0109, 3 have partners, 2 have scandals, 1 has absolutely nothing, i'm always cut out and isolated from such nonsense, why me......

fro past till now, it;s always been cutting me out whenever possible, i don wan it, but u know u will suffer it, cos destiny cannot be avoided, unless u can face it head-on.

nothing worth staying for...... goodbye world...

2010-07-13T23:31:00.002+08:00

sometimes, u don know what u wan in life, maybe, when u see what others have, u also wan it, all these years, i seen too much, seen until i lost track of my goals.

i really thought this time is time, when i finally can make it, but yet, failed again, maybe is because u see others having it too easy liao, minds unbalanced le

from now on, i have to keep everything to myself le, nowhere can i vent it out le, this is after all, my destiny, to be alone and solely alone

not even a chance
hmmm, should be la this has been with me for 18 years
don be envious of others
but say is easy, do is difficult
so how leh

follow destiny lor

2010-07-10T23:01:00.002+08:00

haix, today played keeper at interhouse socer tournament

started so well la, clean sheets for 2 matches, well, that's because i have john terry in front of me, i practically did nothing, but semis conceded 1 goal, thought i covered the angle, but my hands touched the ball, but still went into top corner, sian la, if nvr concede that, and maybe we could win on pk, and i would be in finals liao lor, idiot la, nvr cover the angle,

then 3rd-4th placing was worse, for me la, conceded 2 very sloppy goals, first goal went thru my legs, second goal was a blunder, rubbish la, i dam cui for that match la, sian ttm

but is the experience that counts ba, at least i played, hmmm, i shld try being keeper more, though i wished i am a better defender

haix, i seriously need to do work soon, weekends seems to be always draining me away, how???

anyway, is it really true that my ds is causing my grades to drop, i don know, though i think not ba, i hope it's not la :)

2010-07-09T22:02:00.002+08:00

this week has been a sibei rotten week for me

i sibei suai this whole week la, due to my stupid actions, it's like self inflicting pain, again... and i need a lot of time to mend it...

but when u are down, it's normal for ppl to push u even further, cos i'm guilty of that too. and karma wil strike, it struck this week, and it's all self-inflicted,

when u are down, ppl will puhshu down even further, further weighing u down to ur failures, making u think that u could really be a failure, u will be kena anchored by ur past, unable to make it free and embrace the whole bloddy truth, when ur luck is down and out, how the heck do u get out, u can't right, or can u?

i don know la, life's been damn sucky recently, recent results seems to have an impact on eme, finally. when i see ppl sweating over results this year, i still am like don care don care, but when i saw this mid-year, although i passed chem and phy, i saw my answers, and i first thought, ka ni na, what the heck, why my answers so many wrong, shldn;t be that bad ma, and i have to face the bloddy truth that i'm just not good enough, now even my math dropped, and i can be honest here, I'M DAMN FUCKING DISAPPOINTED WITH MY MATH, 70 SIMPLY IS NOT GOOD ENOUGH, MY CUSHION NOWGONE LIAO, AND I;M DAMN PISSED BY THAT, I;M NOT SUPPOSED TO SCORE LIKE THAT, THIS IS WAY BELOW MY EXPECTATIONS, and then u realised, expectations could only serve to be the anchor that keeps u trapped in the past, trapped in ur failures, and when pp remind u of ur failures, it's ouch X 10000000000000000

i'm losing my bets to ppl. my luck is turning for the worse, i don wan to believe in destiny, but do i have the freaking choice?

i wan to change my luck, every year, term 3 of school serves as my darkest periods, last year.s blackblack incident, this year's lose marks/trees seperate incident, bad things just keep crashing to u at one shot, and i have to relate it to my karma, others karma came, mine just arrived...

then again, maybe, I'm destined to be a loner who camouflages among the crowds. no one truly understands me, cos even i don understand myself, how to know me???

destiny is there, u can't change it, being alone maybe isn't that bad, since it's destiny decreed.

i promise not to suffocate u again
give me just one chance, i will cherish it
i wan back the times where we can just talk anything under the sky
i don wan to see u so painful
cos i really care
ur response, no matter how insignificant, keeps me going

2010-07-06T21:23:00.001+08:00

i get it now, sorry.

i hope u see this, i am really sorry

i understand le, won't happen again :(

2010-07-02T21:44:00.002+08:00

yeah, exams are over, aiyah, only mid years ma, no need so serious

so when get back results, lets see how bad we do

although i can safely say that my econs is my best bet, for the lowest score, come, who wan bet on econs, lower score wins, like that i sure win liao la :)

haha, watched twilight today, cos pamela had free tickets, although she only had 4, then had to buy 2 more, then 6 ppl share the cost of he two tickets, so i watched eclipse for $2, and it was boring, 1, i don know anything about it, so i gong gong de, next, it's 80% romance la, i expected more action, more fighting, well, no thanks to its trailer, 3, there's gonna be a 4th movie, haix, no wonder like no ending one, 4, ppl in my cinema are obviously jacob+taylor fans, started cheering when he appeared, lol, k, he has 8 pecs, win liao lor -_-

the start of long weekend, i desperately wan to go out, i don wan to coop mself at home, another movie perhaps..., i really wish for another movie, i wan watch ip man !!! :)

the various attack patterns
like very hard to reach to the destination
how!!!???
i need a good layout of the situation
then proceed with intention
and attain glory

2010-06-27T23:35:00.002+08:00

haix, england looks to be going home liao,

sad........

anyway, mid years tmr, and aiyah, heck care la, wanted to study for gp, but then, forget it la, suan le, give up liao la, H2 more impt, must take care of them first

well, at least i put in effort and studied, not like the first 4 months, where i have been so freaking poor in academics, haha, what goes down must come up, hehe, here i come :)

this hols has been ok la, with wc action everyday, although i no cable :(

but i miss sch a lot, i miss it a lot -_-

for the next 5 days, go for it :)

i'm gonna attack, and this time, i won't be doing what i have been doing for the past years, when i was still in green :)

2010-06-20T00:41:00.002+08:00

k, make this a quick post :)

another saturday gone just like that, lucky for me, i chionged lots of math lecture notes, although ppl may think that i don need to care for math, that is so UNTRUE, cos my J1 math is like gg, and i need read notes to reunderstand all the concepts, yeah, left vectors 2 and the whole of stats, cover that tmr,

haha, other than that, is another mundane saturday :(

i wan to go out more often, see more movies, hopefully the upcoming ip chun movie, but i also wan watch nanny mcphee, argh, also the last airbender, argh, no more $$$$$ :(

sian, but i will save up to watch as much as i can :)

hopefully can watch with people i want to watch with :)

2010-06-18T22:53:00.002+08:00

yeah, went out today, haix, i rather go out more often, now have to wait till year end (and oh yeah, if attendance is still as bad as it is during year end, i have 2 words for u, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ ), yeah :)

watched the a team today, and it was a great great movie, a good combination of laughs and good plot,so it is a gd show!!!!!! :)

then went to eat at just acia, love the ice cream, cos it's free flow... :)

yeah, after today, gonna kick in full gear liao, just wait till year end for the mass outing, by then, who has the excuse not to come??? if u do, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ :)

haha, today is a great day!!!!! thanks to xiu wei, hong ye, zi qin, chun you and zong you !! u guys made today the best day for this hols, thanks :)

can't wait for sch (minus the exams -_-)

2010-06-16T00:30:00.002+08:00

just wished my mom happy bday :)

i hope that on this day, everything will turn out intended, and that i could have my happy family back

please, let everything work... -_-

so far, i think i can meet my study target, that is,to complete physics by this week, i think i can, after all, if u pang some chapters, of course u can :)

let everything work out, please...

2010-06-13T21:15:00.002+08:00

life's been rather extreme recently...

positives, the new lifts at my flat are in operation, and yeah, now i can no need to walk the stairs, so is a good/bad thing, good is,i can relax, bad is, i lose a way of exercise, so, i must rely on the lifts less... but i wanna use the lifts... it,s between exercise or lifts...

and my new fridge just arrived ytd, good la, now no need to treat freezer as chiller liao, lol

negatives:

my domestic problems are striking up, this time is damn big, is like very difficult to repair, not just cooling off will do it, this time, it's huge, and it could cause all sorts of problems...

i want my happy family back, at least a family where there are no problems for me to worry about... now worry so much, worry when all this is over...

haix... negatives >>>>>> positives, how to survive??? :(

2010-06-10T21:13:00.002+08:00

i feel that i have been productive!!!

i finished my chem revision le!!! :) on schedule :) ext is physics, and when i started, i asked myself, what's all this, i have no clue at all, from this, i can infer that phy is going to be a huge mountain to climb

but my chem i'm feeling quite confident, think i can do it!!!

just dl songs from 4shared.com, love that site man, ttm!!! :)

all the classic songs, all the memories when i was a kid!!!

gonna revise phy after i blogged, today never studied in the afternoon as i was having fun out at amk hub :)

so, seeya, gd luck to those having exams, lets do it

i know just the repeated routine isn't going to guarantee success
but i will try
i will prove it to u, i hope i can

2010-06-08T22:13:00.002+08:00

suppposed to be doing corrections for gp essay, but i don wanna do it :( cos have to find many examples to make it better

haix, maybe i do tmr la, tmr last day, then got the 'mood'!!!

today i did my planning, i planned out my study timetable, and i realised that i allocated just 2 days for econs, haha, econs bye bye liao la, unless i pia my phy in super fast speed, bt how, chem alr made me buay tahan liao, phy is like, goner!!!

so i decided, midyears, my target grades: Math and Chem: A, cos i know i can get it if i wan to, and these 2 are my best subjects la, based on last year. Phy: E, this one i can don care liao lor. GP: C, this is lie a hope, hope that i wil be on form. Econs: S, hahahaha, econs if i get S i will be counting my lucky stars

so lets see what will my results be... -_-

gonna study real hard from now!!!!!!!

GO FOR IT!!! :)

2010-06-06T00:19:00.002+08:00

this is the 75th post :)

so much has changed over the month of may, i changed a lot

and for this upcoming june, it's gonna bu study study study

this past week my target is to finish studying chem, but die la, still have carbonyl, carboxylic acids, nitro cpds, electrochem, grp II, grp VII, periodicity left!!! haha, so if i spent more time for chem, which i think i can still handle, then i have less time for others, considering the fact that i need lots of time for physics, haha, that means less time for econs and gp!!!

Unless i can finish my math revision in one, or better still, half day!!! that would be great, but i know this is impossible, i target 5 days for math, so econs, bye bye!!! :)

seriously, many events have happened, and i am too lazy to recall all of them, there's too many nice nice events :)

one more day of going back to school, sian...

i really miss you!!! i can't wait to see u!!! when i see u, it's like a energy boost!!! :) i think i just can't do without u!!! :)

2010-05-29T00:15:00.002+08:00

aiyoh, lots of happenings and i never update, instead i stone on fb :(

yesterday, i had sch, and the main event is cross country. hahahaha, almost cheated by taking the girls route, but i 'liang xing fa xian' and decided to be a good boy. yeah,like real lor, cheating pro like me being a good boy... wait long long la,

so in the end, i walked 80% for cross country, yeah, cos i'm a slacker!!! :)

today, went out to helped out in jeanette's bdae celebration, and to summarise it, it was like a brief moment in hell!!! luckily i went off early to go for cp's celebation

yeah, and at cp's celebration, i became the spoiler by spoiling the surprise, cos i accidentally said out loud that there's cake :( and poof, spoil surprise liao...

but today is a very good day, the past 24 hrs have been generally great!!! and i love it!!! :)

to be able to show concern to you makes me happy :)

2010-05-21T23:41:00.003+08:00

so there's college day tmr...

i admit, i don wan to come, why? it's like forcing us to come, and the sch scared no audience will look empty. but since i have to come, then come lor...

today

went to gym and focused on assisted chin ups, and i only can do 2 on my own still, hope got some miracle and can promote to doing 3 by next mon :)

sounds like a difficult task... but gonna hope for the best

make up pe was a slacking session, cos no teacher to supervise us, although i would have gone for total slack la, just that i'm a good boy (what a lie!!!)

gonna ds all the way tmr, though i will look out for anyone i know and clap for them :)i mean, they deserve our applause right?

gonna deplete my wife's battery life later, and charge it in the morning, then can spam ds tmr!!! :)

and maybe, i shld do some homework tmr morning and strive to make my weekend still as productive!!! :)

2010-05-19T23:31:00.002+08:00

before i logged in here i realised thati can stone in front of the com pretty well, no wonder i sleep so late, naughty me

recently slept very late as i stoned in front of the com and looked for games to download onto my wife :)

today:

morning had phy lecture, sian la... and i'm still sore that i'm in this schrodinger lecture group, this group is for those who scored A,B,C for last year's promos. ok la, i scored B, but that was then, this is now, now i'm scoring U for physics, now my math is very unstable, now i'm not doing tutorials, now i'm always with my wife. and people in my grp must but the top jc prelim papers, please la, make me spend more money :(

i don care, i'm going to try to psycho my teacher to allow me to transfer

pe was next, YES, I NOW CAN DO 2 PULL UPS!!!!!! :) OMG, I JUST CAN'T BELIEVE IT, JUST LAST FRI IT WAS 0, THEN 2 DAYS AGO IT WAS 1, AND WHEN I CAN PULL UP FOR THE SECOND TIME TODAY I WAS DAMN SHOCKED!!! THIS JUST MADE MY DAY

after pe went to gym (crazy right, but i have no choice -_-) and did some workout, although i can't repeat my 2 pull ups at one go, think i had spent to much energy trying to do that, but it's ok, going to gym before chem enabler tmr :)

and then went to bathe, AND OMG, ONE MORE REASON WHY PEOPLE SHOULD NOT COME TO MY SCHOOL, BECAUSE THE AJC TOILETS' DRAINAGE PIPES ARE CLOGGED UP, AND WATER NOW OVERFLOWS OUT OF THE CUBICLES!!!!!!! -_-

then had chem tutorial, and lckily i did my work, if not go there meng cha cha, pamela was like shocked to hear me asking qns, after school she asked me whether if i did my tutorial, cos it'sweird for me to be asking so many qns in one tutorial, and i thought, true la, normally for this year i don ask qns, cos i didn't do my tutorials :)

gp was ok, except i'm slapped with the task of rewriting my AQ... :(

and had staje photoshoot :) it's always so nice to see the staje juniors. so capable :) and i believe staje is now in good hands

then went to see aj bball finals, aiyah, although we lost (and i admit, this is expected), the match made me think. seriously, did our opponents even treat this seriously? but i can see that AJ tried their best, and we cheered damn loud la, in fact, this is the only thing we won, cheering!!!

then walked all the way fron yishun sports hall to yishun mrt!!! damn long distance just so to repair my specs, haix...

then homed, and my bro told me he accidentally poured his soup onto my wife!!! AND I WAS DAMN PISSED OBVIOUSLY!!! LUCKILY, MY WIFE NOT DAMAGED, ALTHOUGH THERE WAS A BRIEF MOMENT WHEN MY WIFE HAD NO SOUND!!! SCARED ME SIA!!!

OK, NEEDS TO SLEEP EARLY TODAY!!!

but maybe do some work first... hehe :)

2010-05-16T23:25:00.002+08:00

today was a productive day :)

woke up in the morning, and ganesh smsed me saying he and his family need go to new house, and not at home, so i no need to tutor him today, oh well, fine by me, just spent my morning playing with my "wife" first, then read the newspapers and did correlation tutorial, and i knew that i had not wasted my weekend

but afternoon's session with joanna was still on, so still went to work.

ok, i just watched highlights for chelsea's win (haha, i'm distracted while typing)

and i love it, i love double, domestic double

but at least portsmouth plated with heart, and this would be a nice farewell for them...

speaking of which, AJ made it to bball finals, although everyone says that we will lose to hwa chong, lets win them in cheering, k???

can la, i'm sure of it

productive weekend, did work, and played various games

i touched heartgold after like 1 month and cleared 2 gyms
i pia cooking mama 3 and am satisfied with myself
i still continue to play fifa and i suffered defeat to birmingham, haha, i don care, i owned the AI there, i lead the league by 9 pts :)

and today really feels good :)

and i hope it will be better if real madrid can make me happy by winning by a big margin and barca slip up, this will really make my day :)

i love football :)

2010-05-15T00:08:00.002+08:00

haha, updating before i go to sleep, (this shows how much i love my blog haha :D)

nothing much to rant about, just that i went nyp mac to eat, hoping to eat quarter pounder with cheese after so many years of not eating it, then nyp mac doesn't sell :( break my heart

and school's just like that, hours later i will wake up to attempt to cross out the things i listed down in my to-do-list, yes, i have made 1 real list, with ORANGE headings :)

haha, just finished downloaded 3 ds games, gonna try them out, hope they don crash like heartgold...

wanted to dl more, but unavailable, but oh well, i'll wait :)

wanna watch movie, especially ip man... :(

2010-05-12T23:33:00.002+08:00

chem spa today, did something epic and one and only and never done before

I FAKED ALL MY 6 VALUES IN MY CHEM SPA!!!!!! :) SERIOUSLY, WHO CAN DO THAT AND STILL GET A NEAR PERFECT GRADIENT!!!

OK, i'm not encouaging cheating in prac, pls don cheat in prac, i'm a bad example. but it turns out that my chem spa is screwed up cos i just can't get the dark blue colour that i'm supposed to get.

i got grey/yellow/any other colour but dark blue. meaning my chemicals screwed me up(i think) well, 4 other ppl also suffered same fate as me. so to amirah, m priya, pamela and grace,haha. we are so screwed!!!

ppl spent most time answering qns, i spent time trying to craft my 6 values and achieve acceptable answers.

cheating pro strikes again!!!

and i can say that if i claim to be no.2, who dares to claim to be no.1

H3 test over le, haix shld have really spent time cramming the definitions word for word!!!

BUT IT'S OVER LE, SO, I SHLD JUST WAIT FOR MY RESULTS

I WILL REAP WHAT I SOW, AND I THINK I HAVE PREPARED ENOUGH!!! (I THINK)

OK, needs to do math tutorial now, lagging behind by about 3-4 qns now,

don wan to get 'scolded' by ms bok again

she just questioned me "what happened to you?"

and i just can't reply, cos i know t's my fault for not doing tutorial... :(

2010-05-06T23:24:00.002+08:00

so my bday today, i was reduced to a sick man...

woke up today, delighted to se ppl smsing me happy birthday, that made my day, despite me losing my voice and couldn;t speak.

then went to sch, and funny thing happened, i saw zong you sitting alone, and of course sat down, ten we talked a bit, then his friends came and still talked, haha, by then i realised that i need a packet of tissues to survive, so i juts went to buy and didn't tell him, partly because i lost my voice le, trying not to talk. but then, isawqin jie and desiree walked by holding a cake and candle, HAHAHAHA, b then i knew it was for me, and picha lobang liao

then i went back after buying my tissues, and they celebrated my bday. then of cours i blw the candle and was staring at the present qj gave me,never did i realise that they got me some trick candle,and no matter how i blow, it just reignited, initially thought it's my prob, till i stared at the candle, hahahaha, thanks zong you, qin jie and desiree for prolonging the hapoy feeling in me.

of course, sch as per normal, i still can't speak(though they say i sound sexy now,which i don wan to :D), and i got back my chem class test!! 4/25!!! epic fail.bottom in class i think, but that didn't make my mood bad. good enough

then had gp lecture test today! idiot la, birthday still need do test, so suai... anyway, i wrote rubbish for the essay, and i also had no mood to do it so heck la

then after test went to umbrella for 'cca meeting' haha, nice juniors, made a card for me and gave me presents!!! So nice of them, love my juniors ttm!!! No wonder staje is the no. one thing in sch life!!! ahahahahahah!!!

then went to mac at amk drive thru. weep, cos i can't eat and kop fries, so damn sian, but what surprised me is that the girls bought me a present!!! a water bottle. haha, now my bottle upgrade le!!! and they even went to but a bottle of honey aloe vera for me to drink so that my throat can get better!!! thanks a lot!!!

after that H3 lesson, and i still feel like sleeping, haha,(test coming soon, i need to study!!!)

then joanna(my third student) smsed me saying her maths got problem, then went to econ to help her, aiyoh leh, i lose my voice le still need to teach her, feeling a bit sian

now need to sleep, need to recuperate

if only i wasn't sick today!, cos i realised that it's not at night that i cough badly, it's when i reach home!!! at home, no. of times i coughed = no. of times i coughed out of home(in school, walking, at econ teaching joanna) why ah, cough so much at home???

WANTS TO GET WELL SOON!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! :)

2010-05-04T22:32:00.002+08:00

so syf's over...

i will really miss all the times we had tgt, all the fun times being in ensemble and being sai kang warriors.

if anyone from staje sees this: THANKS J1s, FOR BEING SO ENTHU AND MAKING SYF A MEMORABLE EXPERIENCE FOR ME!!! WITHOUT UR ENERGY, I THINK I WILL DEFLATE LA!!! THANKS J2s, FOR BEING TGT AS ONE UNIT FOR THIS STORY!!!

Now that the J2s have stepped down, i will really miss cca a lot (though there is a high posibility of us crashing!!!) if that's the case, me can't wait for farewell party!!! Hehehehehe......

anyway, play almost screwed up today, 2 nails that were used to hang our masks droped off to god knows where. luckily, helmi was there to change our moves and credit to ensemble, we NEVERED screwed up!!! Melissa, Jia Yu, Hema, Vas, MeiYen, Michelle, Natalie, guess we learnt a valuable lesson! NEVER PANIC IN THE FACE OF ADVERSITY!!!

AND OF COURSE TO THE MAIN CAST AND THE CREW(OK, I KNOW I'M BEING A BIT BIASED HERE, BUT OF COURSE I WIL TALK MORE ABOUT ENSEMBLE, COS I'M IN IT!!!), BUT SERIOUSLY, THIS IS A TEAM EFFORT, WITHOUT U, THERE WON;T BE THIS PRODUCTION, SO GREAT JOB PPL!!!

ON A SIDE NOTE, I LOST MY VOICE!!! THIS STINKS!!!

I TOLD MYSELF NOT TO DO A SINGLE SCH WORK TODAY...

I NEVER BROKE THAT PROMISE!!! :)

SO REGARDLESS OF THE RESULTS, MAY THE MEMORIES ALWAYS STAY IN US, ALL THE FUN, MADNESS, CRAZINESS AND SERIOUSNESS!!!

THE FUTURE OF STAJE LIES IN UR HANDS, WITH GREAT POWER COMES GREAT RESPONSIBILITY...

2010-05-01T22:46:00.002+08:00

one week just flew by

for once, i really felt that time just flew by...

staje syf is just 3 days away. argh, i still feel that we could have done more rehearals. i'm not saying that we shldn't have IHDC, but if only there's a way to accommodate these 2...

haha, possible reason for saying this is because i got 40 CIP hours just for being a j2 in staje!!! heng ah, more than what being an ogl gives(30 hrs). but seriously, ihdc is a fun event that will be etched in u memories once u are part of it!! :)

back to syf... 3 days more. ppl hang in there. i know it has been tough on us, but once we showed ppl what we are made of, it will be the sense of achievement, sense of success. although to be honest here, i really want to win gold with honours for all of us, but if we don't, it's ok as we have put in all our effort and all the wonderful memories will always stick with us!!!

especially to ensemble, haha, we will be one happy unit :)

but this past week has been overall eventful. did some studying(I think???), although my physics is still goner, and my chem class test also gone cos my teacher told me that i did terrible, haha, asked me whether i got study, and i said yes(if u count reading thru lecture notes just once as studying!!!). haha, ppl asked me what happened to me this year many times, seriously, i don;t know.

but i will study seriously for the mid years. although i know that such tests are rubbish, i promised myself some time ago that i will study for the midyears and reclaim my position as a top student, in 0109!!!(current ranking: out of top 10 liao) :) by then, they will see my true potential!!! hehehehe

anyway, lots of work to do

to-do list
Phy: quantum 2 tutorial, read laser notes(although most likely i will do neither)
Chem: read nitrogen compound notes
Math: Try to understand hypothesis testing, if cannot, try do tutorial first, do like robot, do and don't understand
Econs: Read unemployment lecture notes

haha, recently completed an econs essay qn in just 45 mins. how i do it? with a model ans of course, haha, i really too lazy le la, that's why i borrowed the model ans, modified it to suit my standard, and submit my ans.

haha, is Kenneth a mugger, many say yes, i say no, i think it depends how people define mugger. i define it as studying from day to night, always doing tutorials and reading lecture notes quickly (quicker than others).

actually, i thought of more criterion, but deleted it cos i thought the more i say, i feel that i will be very exaggerating!!!

haha, last note: staje FTW!!!!!! show them what stajeworks is and how staje works!!!

2010-04-24T00:04:00.002+08:00

argh, today was/is a damn tiring day!!!!!

phy teacher has course, so didn't come to class, me wei shun and yibin went to gym to workout, haha, this is my first actual visit to the gym la. actually, i went just to prove that i can do at least 1 bench press. ahhahahaha. that stupid keng wee, say what i cannot even lift the bar!!! -angry- !!!!!

so that was during the empty class, and one lesson i learnt, i really need to bring a towel!!! always inflicting myself with heat! -stupid me-

anyway, when i went to math lecture,because of the fact that i missed 1 lecture due to me going to acjc (on a side note, acjc really is ftw!!!), i like meng cha cha de... what critical region, what 6 steps to testing... argh!!! (i simply don like it when math becomes gp like explanation!!!)

went to do sampling after sch, did till qn 4... not bad la

anyway, cca ended REALLY LATE TODAY!!! ENDED AT JUST NICE AT 9, WHEN THE PERSON CAME TO WARN US ABOUT THE ALARM, THEN I CONVERSED WITH HIM (IN HOKKIEN)(summarised):

me: pai seh ah, end so late

person(known as ah tan): aiyoh, gui diam liao

me: wa zai, pai seh ah

ah tan: gau diam liao, wu alarm

me: wa liao, volleyball bo alarm meh

ah tan: ya, volleyball bo alarm

me: wah liao, le ka wa gong stajeworks wu alarm, volleyball bo alarm, si mi sai lai eh?

oh well, i think the conversation ended here, and after that i went home, bought a wafle for dinner along the way :) (ps, i love waffles)

anyway, tmr no cca, this tuesday also no cca!!! yes!!! lots of free sleeping time!!! :) can chiong work tmr (seriously need to work hard!!!)

also, tmr i go collect my new specs, gonna shock the world, i think...(and i hope!!!)

countdown to chem spa and H3 test: 18 days

countdown to SYF PERFORMANCE!!!: 10 DAYS!!!

AJ STAJEWORKS FTW!!! LETS PERFORM WELL AND MOST IMPORTANTLY ENJOY OURSELVES!!!

p.s. orange is definitely my favourite colour now la!!! :)

2010-04-19T00:09:00.002+08:00

hehehehehehe

had a blast for my weekend, went to acs barker for masquerade at sat!! it was a blast, with al of us just dancing about, well, jumping on the spot mostly. although $12 for 1 donut and 2 cups of drinks still pisses me off a bit, but oh well, i really enjoyed myself. priceless memories :)

anyway, i now have another tuition assignment le. teaching this girl who is the daughter of the minimart's boss. aiyah, today was the first session, and it went pretty well :)

off to sleep now, needs rest, now cca's getting more and more hiong, just endure till 4 may, and reap the fruits of our seeds of labour!!! :)

countdown to 12 may[my dreadful day... :(]=23 days... :(

2010-04-16T23:53:00.002+08:00

haha, B for PW

oh well, good enough, considering that there is no such thing as a 'whole class gets A' here. and my class has 0 As.

but so what, after all, ultimately, i don know their marking process, whether it is self screwed or not self screwed, 17 is just a nice no.

and when u hear no. like 76, 80, 86, 99!!!!@#$%^&*, u would really 'like' 17!!!

nat champs for Bs, woooots :)

2010-04-13T23:25:00.002+08:00

hahahahaha, starting my post with ahhahaahahahha

haha, has been in a good mood recently

cca's getting more fun and simply more fun, today's extra rehearsal saw me wearing my amkss grad night clothes, haix... and i wore the white mask, which is too small for my face(instructor says that look like an alien!!! )

and we started by carrying the damn heavy props to the staje room!!! argh!!! damn heavy la, but luckily, we guys are well trained sai kang warriors! :) Me+Bryan Koh=Sai Kang pair!!!

and my elbows are still sore from last fri's pe, weep.....

anyway, tmr going acjc, lets wreak havoc there!!! (wants to have lots of fun!!!)

anyway, i'm still stuck at the army thingy, strangely, i can't fill in my bank account no. no idea why!!! Pissing me off!!!

Quote of the day: DO IT WHILE YOU CAN!!! :)

2010-04-08T22:39:00.002+08:00

haha, so many things happened these past 4 days, i try my best to type them all,

started wearing my new pair of adidas shoes on monday, $79.90. haha, i purposely looked out for the cheapest pair the shop have. also, the colour is dark dark de, like that i won't be that heartbroken if it gets dirty, not that i wan it to get dirty la :)

but leh, on wed, many thing happened... early in the morning i realised that my specs are spoilt, haix, it's been my faithful companion for 2 years and 4 months. luckily, now, i can maintain it till it last

then, during school, because it is i&e day (haha, i forgot what it stands for!!!), i have free time to play ball. ythen this careless me injured my right shoulder, cause i was running trying to steal the ball, then collide with my friend's face, my shoulder hit, his face got 2 scratches due to his specs, aiyoh, both of us now injured... :(

and on wed, had my H3 test, haix, i studied 1 week before and still screwed up. sian la, because i have been spoilt. for 17 years i never need to mug math and all of a sudden i need to, haix

and i have a cca junior who expressed an interest in H3 math, and of course, i discouraged her!!! :)

and on today, i received aj yearbook!!! haix, if u look at our class pics,u will be shocked and wonder how it is done..

and for jc yearbook, i felt that there's too many words, haha, big contrast to amkss yearbook, more pics, less words

haix, can;t attend aj idol tmr cos got cca, 5.30-9, haha, will try to sneak in lor! :)

跟你拿跟你拿跟你拿跟你拿跟你拿跟你拿跟你拿

拿什么? :)

i know i am damn slow, but i like this song a lot! :)

Colbie Caillat-Falling For You Lyrics

I don’t know but
I think I maybe
Fallin’ for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting ’til I
Know you better
I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
As I’m standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It’s just you and me
I’m trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I’m scared of what you’ll say
So I’m hiding what I’m feeling
But I’m tired of
Holding this inside my head
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
Oh I just can’t take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out
I’ve been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’ve been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don’t know what to do
I think I’m fallin’ for you
I’m fallin’ for you
I can’t stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can’t hide it
I think I’m fallin’ for you (x2)
I’m fallin’ for you
Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I’m fallin’ for you

2010-04-05T23:34:00.002+08:00

haha, got back econs and chem last week.

Chem: 14/30. technically, i passed, too bad my teacher treats 15 as the passing grade, thus, when she gave out the papers, she said, "ok, just now the papers were not given out in order, now giving out those that failed. Kenneth Lee"

haha, xian la, passed and she say fail... at least i get E

Econs: 14/25. Damn shiok la, passed an actual test for the first time, improve from U to C!!!!!! :) :) :) :) :) :) so happy, when i thought that i wrote rubbish...

haha, despite this glorious improvement, my term 1 rank points stand at 37.5! (0+10+20+7.5+0) haha, first position leh. In terms of how much u 'deprove'!!! (Promos rank pts was 66.25, now decreased by 28.75!!!)

haha, nothing to say now. just wishing myself good luck for my H3 test this wed, haha. Have the feeling that I can do it!!! (I'm back!!!)

2010-03-30T10:13:00.002+08:00

haha, last day of e-learning(only 2 days la =D)

with that, i'm supposed to do selfstudy for my subjects, which i did, except for econs and phy. Please lor, phy lost cos i couldn't hear what they say(as in shld be much louder to catch my attention, always the same problem) and as for econs, i sian diao liao. haha, i rather read la. At least i did math and chem, and did my gp research(half of gp done, another half to go)

anyway, i once told mysef what to do during these 2 days, but it looks like it's empty smoke liao

To-Do list:

Academics:
(Lots of homework here)
AC tutorial
Normal distribution and complex no worksheet
Chem tutorials(many topics, like carboxylic acids, nitroge cpds etc)
read econs lecture notes(finally)

Non-academics:
download new ds games
Don just play fifa 10, must play others
spam as much videos in these 2 days

haha, a list always remains a list. i remains to see if i can cross out all of the academics stuff. For non academics, sure, crossed out le.

that means this week i only have 2 days of sch, wed and thur, and i really want to watch a movie

clash of the titans would be good... so fri who wants to watch???

wants(needs) to watch movie, last movie was last year... =(

2010-03-25T23:37:00.002+08:00

taken my napfa

Sit-ups: 46 A
Standing broad jump: 226 D
Sit & reach: 51 A
Pull Up: 0 F(or U or nothing) :)
Shuttle run: 9.6s A
2.4 run: 11.29 C

so u see, if u ignore the pull ups, i silver le, so, let's just ignore it :)

haha, i know cannot ignore la, so i will try to improve my pull up.

if i can.....

tmr's sports meet, got lots of people to cheer for

(my twin!!)huishia's running in like 3 events, so i wish her all the best

Stajeworks(girls) is also running in the relays tmr, haha, also wish them all the best!!!

anyway, the weekend's coming, 1 week has just passed like a blink.

btw, i made it to the ensemble :)

IF U HAVE THE TIME, USE IT WISELY, LIKE RESTING :)

2010-03-23T23:12:00.002+08:00

there's napfa tmr, so i'm going to fail it :)

pull ups too lousy liao, so far the cont stands at 0! haha :)

anyway, cca's tmr, going to try to get a spot in the ensemble,

then can show of my "dancing talents"... LOL :)

anyway, checked my H3 test results: Score 59 Mean score 75.62 Median score 77

what the heck, the mean so freaking high!

and with that, i really urge ppl that if u can take H3, DON'T TAKE UNLESS U ARE:

1. SUPER SMART
2. HAS LOTS OF SELF-DISCIPLINE TO DO THE FREAKING TUTORIALS
3. READ OUT OF CONTEXT
4. SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T SLEEP IN LECTURES

if u are someone who does not satisfy the above criteria, my advice is really don take

cos i take, end up is someone who dreads it

DON LET PASSION BECOME A DRAG IN LIFE

2010-03-20T22:13:00.001+08:00

haha, i lknow it's been months, haha, cos i too slack liao

anyway, who would have come to see this dead place???

if u did, and felt disappointed, then oops, my bad

but anyway, now that this wil be the first post of 2010

haha, i can only say about my hols lor

the most important that happened

IS STAJECAMP!!! where i had so much fun!!!!!!! bonded with the juniors and had so much fun with them. My group IS(NOT WAS) AWESOME!!! Thanks to rachel, melissa, sarah and jia yin. we are the jokers!!! Be part of our social experiment! But the most fun part is he bank robbery(broadway style) haha!! GIVE ME UR MONEY OR U WILL BE SHOT!! :) thanks to ainesh, meiyen, michelle and rachel!!! HAHAHAHAHA

but unfortunately, other than this awesome event, my hols suck la, so much homework!!! School's so much better, lesser work.

And during school, there's cca for me to enjoy myself!!! that's why sometimes, i fell that hols is redundant!!!

haha, in term 2 week 1, most likely get back remaining test papers. I'm (proud?) to say that i scored 2 Us so far, for Phy and GP!!! (:D?)

last note: it's been weeks since i had my H3 course.....

one thing to say, WHY DID I EVEN TAKE IT!!!

shld talk about this more when i get back my H3 test (although most likely is fail liao...)

2009-11-04T08:36:00.002+08:00

lalalalalalalalalla, updating during sch time

haix, now is the op crucial stage, 2 more days leh!!!

oh well, at least we get a lot of days off!!!

so, work hard for this week, and party like xiao for the next days!!!

right now searching for pics to put in slides

haha, yet i am distracted, and come here to update

hahahahahaahahaha, so, shld work harder now

haha, but cos i'm using the sch laptop, so got internet connection, and thus can update, haha

and with my com, i started 'youtube week' haha, can go youtube like crazy

haha

k, work hard for OP, and get a good grade

FIGHTING

2009-10-30T22:42:00.002+08:00

ok

7 days more to PW

and it turns out, that i thought i was at the top, haha, second instead.

hmmmmm

k, lets talk about my life for this past week,

signed up to be orientation group leader(OGL) and went for the interview on thursday, shits la, first impression i alr fail liao, cos i never had my collar badge on, shits la, then in the interview i think i screw liao cos i struggled wit their qns la, and my eng too lousy liao, my vocab is like, gg and bb.

so, if i become ogl, haha, count my lucky stars, after all, being ogl could mean something to write for testimonial.

haha. one more thing done today is to submit my H3 application form, haha, signed up for the NTU math and if i make it, i would be starting to go to NJ and HCI for my lessons, haha!!!

And got back my results slip. ok. here comes finalised marks

Subject Grade Percentile
H1 Econs 38% 21.7
H1 GP 50% 45.5
H2 Chem 75% 93.6
H2 Math 89% 99.9
H2 Phy 72% 96.3

Argh, my math,99.9, this means i shld be second, grrrrr

Next year i must work harder to get the 100 percentile

FIGHTING!!!

2009-10-27T00:20:00.002+08:00

haha, a few hours later and we would need to hand in WR

stupid rules, meaning why must print 3 copies

waste trees and ink

haha, plain whining here

but anyway, it's going to be over soon,

I&R and OP are coming soon

so, let's just countdown to OP

then, we maximise play and minimise studying

YEAH!!!!!!!

Countdown to play day: 10 days!!!

2009-10-25T17:19:00.001+08:00

right now at raymond's house doing pw

haha, wr submission is just 2 days away

xian la, time really flies, soon it will be op and soon it will be hols and even soon and all of a sudden a levels will come

time really flies, all of a sudden, we are approaching the end of pw and the end of school, someday that i once thought would never come

haha......

2009-10-24T23:06:00.002+08:00

ok

i have been thinking about something

is it just my school (u know what is my sch right, cos i don want to mention name, maybe kena), or does other jc do the same thing

that is, group students that have done badly in promos into 4 groups, one is conditional promotion, one is retest, one is retain and the last one is being asked to leave the college

what the hell

especially the last group

what the shit

i mean, for the last group, it sounds like the college is giving up on the pupils there

why this group

the first three groups are alright, but does the sch know how many hearts are broken when the news is broken to the pupils in last grp

although i am safe, one will naturally feel for those in the last group

i mean, the last group is just stupid la,

so does the sch mean that these people sholud just give up?

crap

give them another chance la, i mean, we do want to study

by asking them to leave, it gives me one impression, that is the school just cares about the overall results and just do not want to see a drop in their results

it's just my assumption, cos why can the school just ask people to leave based on results, asking people to leave is just another term for expel, but expel needs to have its grounds

so, the last grp is just rubbish

if other jcs do teh same thing, then u can just ignore what that has been written above

if only my sch does this, what is it they are trying to prove

i don know, but we students should know

well, that's what i think la

so, if anyone wants to come to my sch, u all really need to study very hard

for one day u may be asked to leave...

............

2009-10-23T22:53:00.004+08:00

i am a schemer

cos this is the 50th post

and i planned to use this to blog abput my promo results

so, haha, this is just to create content for the 50th post

ok, here we go

Promo results:

H1 Econs: 23/60, 38%, U
haha, i nothing to say la, studied, but still get U, and among the guys in my class, i think i have been failing since the start of the year, the other guys have passed before, at some point, so..., i xian diao la, at least let my promo have S ma, 1 more mark leh, but anyway, lucky it is only H1 subject, better than a H2 fail

H1 GP: 49.5%, D
yeah, lucky lucky also can get this 'heng heng' mark, jc people should know what i mean, but i explain, cos E is 45-49, and D is 50-54, so a 49.5 is neither a E nor a D, hence, it is treated as D lor, hahahaha, but GP was bullshit la, compre bullshit, compo bullshit, so the grade is... BULLSHIT

H2 Physics, 69%, B
haix, at first i really thought that my phy was a goner, the paper was really very tough, so i was damn shcked when i saw this result, i NEVER expected to get this high for physics la, cos i was targeting a D at most, so when i realised that i was so close th get an A, i got happy for the unexpectedness, and a bit xian, cos it s just 1 mark more to get A, haha, but i should not complain, pass can liao, B should be contented liao

H2 Chem, 74%, A
if i said that i don expect this, would u all believe, ok, i know that i can pass, but to get A, eh, luck played a part, cos my MCQ i guessed some and got correct, and luckily, my free response qns did rather well, which pulled my grade up, so, heng ah!!!

H2 Math, 87%, A
YEAH! YEAH! YEAH! seriously, i know that i will get an A(ok, i know i sound rather zhuai), but i do feel confident after my mid year triumph. And to get a higher mark than in the mid-year, i am speechless. and there is the possibility that i top in AJ, i serious, cos my teacher got say that i maybe top, and i did some comparing with the nearest competitors, so MAYBE my math got top. If got, shiok la, cos after all, it is not easy to do well in AJ leh, must compete with teh 6,7,8,9 pointers, so haha, 11 pointer can do it de!!!

and recently, my laptop perma spoilt, and is sent for repairs. right now i am bloggng using a borrowed laptop from the sch, haha, i only know that ther are laptops for loan until this incident occurs, so, lucky la, can still resume online activities

ok, promo results is only 85% of overall grade, must include 15% from mid-year

so..., overall results(tentative figures)

econs: 38
GP: 50
Chem: 75
Phy: 66
Math: 87

this is only an estimation so far, overall graded will be moderated, so maybe higher.
haha, i am a lucky person la.

must continue this form and not slacken!!!

FIGHTING!!!

2009-10-01T10:50:00.001+08:00

Few words...

STUDY IS VERY IMPT TO PASS PROMOS

HAHAHAHHA

THEREFORE, MUST STUDY

NEXT POST WIL BE AT THE TIME WHEN I SHARE GOOD NEWS

I HOPE LA

THEREFORE

BYES FOR NOW!!!!

2009-09-25T23:34:00.002+08:00

dance for pe is over, so next tue is our last pe lesson

xian, cos i would miss the games

not physical training

and anyway, promos are coming

at 25/9/09, there are 9 days more to the first exam, GP.

haha, GP...

anyway, i am a lucky person...

for i have escaped death for 2 consecutive weeks

so for the exams, i think i would be lucky,

hehe

cos i have targets, thus to achieve it, not only u need toi study, u need the element of luck

so haha

GOOD LUCK TO EVERYONE TAKING PROMOS, LET US ALL PROMOTE TOGETHER AND LEAVE NO ONE BEHIND

TOGETHER WE SOAR (CONQUER PROMOS) AS ONE

YEAH!!!!!

2009-09-18T23:16:00.002+08:00

now aj pe lessons are just dance lessons

what a waste

games are so much better......

yeah

and now

i am in study gear liao

hahahahaahahahah

so

work hard!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaahahahahahahaahah

:) :)

2009-09-11T01:16:00.001+08:00

working in the middle of nowhere

just came here to type something

did studying this past week

yeah

ok go work now

......

2009-09-09T23:46:00.002+08:00

arrrgh

this sep hols must ave been the worst in my 17 years

got so much work

need hand in WR draft by this fri

when we only got it back at today!!!

xian la

PW is a stupid thing

don't u agree

and honestly, i wanted to revise during this week

now i think i can forget about it la

stupid PW

!@#$%

2009-09-06T16:04:00.003+08:00

Let me ask u something

Is it true that parents are like wine, who get better with age?

I mean, as they age, they start to see things more openly

If it is, then i...

haix...

recently have internal problems, and ya la, i was partly at fault la

but parents should not brood over it right

if they can be like me, who see things as not so serious, would the world be more peaceful?

rhetorical questions....

haix......

must start studying

by the way, do parents control kids?

rhetorical question...

2009-09-03T22:50:00.002+08:00

It's not that i don wan to blog

I should have blogged like on mon or tue to say the fun things i did

but now, the mood not there liao

but it was so nice to go back to amkss and see the people there, seeing people that i may only see once in 1 year

so, it was good...

Recently, had a lot of problems, up to this moment, haven settle them yet, but i hope theycan be settled soon

Yesterday just pia my eom, xian la. Changed alr still i think cmi la

xian la......

for me, my august was the most terrible month cos of a lot of downturns

i was expecting september

but like seems to be much more stressful

jc life

stressful...

:(

P.S. My posts are getting shorter (word count wise...)

2009-08-25T22:23:00.002+08:00

19 days after the will's death

I'm ok, yippee.

have a lot of things that happened, but now that they ae past tense liao, i lazy to talk about them liao

haha

the workload is starting to pile up man

phy, chem, math, econ, pw....

as for gp leh, i still carry the heck care attitude for gp(maybe temporarily only, haha)

As for myself...

I now like a lifeless zombie, i lost the drive that i had in semester 1, xian la.... Now i do things xian xian de

and now, 0109 decided to fine people for speaking non-english languages in gp and pw lessons, arghhhh, it's obvious that the fine is set for me, hahahahaha :)

wanted to find some lyrics, but don wan la, i damn lazy, and i need to go to do work,

so....

just like that lor

haha :)

2009-08-19T22:34:00.002+08:00

ok, blog now before i go work on my GP

speaking about gp, seriously, i like a bit don care about it liao, so far, it's like 可有可无 to me, seriously...

everytime in gp tutorial, i feel like sleeping

i know i should change this mindset, but perhap only if gp can cover sports more(Fat Hope!!) maybe i would be interested(doesn't guarantee i would listen and not sleep) HEHE

And i am like becoming a more bad boy liao, serious.

I give examples, i started to psycho people to 'pon' lectures, particularly econs lecture just so to go sleep, haha, only suggested once. And I'm like the gangster in 0109, shirt tucked out, no collar badge, refuse to wear tie during wednesday

What has happened to me

Anyway, just had stAJework farewell for seniors today,

Damn fun lah!!!, will miss you all seniors man, you all belong to the 疯狂 seniors that exist. You all rock

If there's anything i may forget in AJ, it would definitely not be the fun times I had in stAJeworks!

Yippee

So, next year, Gold With Honours, as a promise to the seniors, provided we don meet some guai lan judge

I'm still trying my best to mend
You avoid me once, i still am not sure about what u think
I don wan this kind of life
as a plea, seriously, let's just go back to things were
just like that
isn't it as simple as that
why is it so complicated
.....

P.S. The next greatest 'PD', it's gonna be me!!!

2009-08-16T15:58:00.000+08:00

来, 让我也以华语谈谈我的心思

我只说一句

我真的有时候希望我能够时光倒流, 让我重新再来.
也希望能够回到以前那种情况, 总好过现在的互不理睬

好了,用华语是很累的.
回到英文吧

:)

2009-08-13T22:53:00.002+08:00

Hey people,

xian la, fell sick for the past 2 days

haven fully recovered, but must go school on fri cos of SPA, (STUPID PRACTICAL ASSESSMENT), if not, i really wanted to rest till fri

i hate falling sick, in jc, the truth is that u can go thru a day knowing that 1 person is not here at all, this is sad...

Now have to rush thru eom, cos i didn't come on thur, thus mised out on handing in the second draft

xian...

torturous on me...

2009-08-07T22:58:00.002+08:00

Hey people

Make this quick

6 August 2009

Kenneth Lee's will has been officially pronounced dead

Even though i said that my will is strong

It has to die eventually

not within my control though

haha :(

2009-08-02T16:59:00.002+08:00

lalalala

just here to type a few words

life must go on regardless of whatever that happens

half day on fri!!!

what shall i do on fri

hmmmm

must slack

movie anyone?

UP and GI Joe are coming this week

haha :)

2009-07-22T22:19:00.002+08:00

Ok, i blogging 2 nights in a row

All I want to say is that

I WILL NEVER GIVE UP ON YOU!!!

Haha, i am strong-willed ma

i once told myself that anything for YOU is worth all that it takes

And that i don't mind doing anything for YOU

Haha

Cos i need to do much more for YOU

My current progess is horible

Advice

Tactics

More conversations

All these listed above are what i curently lack but yet I need

so

good luck

歌名：體諒
歌手：許志安

很久沒有和你好好吃飯
也沒有　坐下來談一談你的近況
卻眼看你在不斷　換新裝
我只像旁觀者偷看　我明白已不能作伴
還感謝　你不忍說殘酷的真相
可能　你想我適應孤單
我又怎麼捨得不原諒

你很容易愛上　初戀般擁抱的溫暖
我卻在渴望　終身的對像
這是我們必然的收場

不怪你背叛
改變的只是你在我胸懷裡成長
殘忍的只是我要包容你的夢想
我愛你怎能阻止你活得開朗
眼淚贊成我體諒
謝謝你善忘
讓我知道自己有那麼好的修養
我不要你為了內疚而不安
我要你沒有壓力和別人再交往
不必發覺我的內傷

看你眼角眉梢閃著春光
快填滿　我那卑微而偉大的孤單
我不會與你為難
再辛酸　也要成全你的願望
你善變卻一樣善良
用冷淡　來讓我作好最壞預算
為免　我不必要的期望
以為你還會心軟

不怪你背叛
改變的只是你在我胸懷裡成長
殘忍的只是我要包容你的夢想
我愛你怎能阻止你活得開朗
眼淚贊成我體諒
謝謝你善忘
讓我知道自己有那麼好的修養
我不要你為了內疚而不安
我要你沒有壓力和別人再交往
不必發覺我內傷

原來愛的力量
寬容得為失戀療傷
哭泣與微笑結果都一樣
你越狠我越快釋放

不怪你背叛
改變的只是你在我胸懷裡成長
殘忍的只是我要包容你的夢想
我愛你怎能阻止你活得開朗
眼淚贊成我體諒
謝謝你善忘
讓我知道自己有那麼好的修養
我不要你為了內疚而不安
我要你沒有壓力和別人再交往
不必發覺我的內傷

Since my mood is good now, here's another one

容祖儿: 這就是愛嗎

你確定這就是愛嗎
真的愛我嗎
手牽著手漫步斜陽　就當作浪漫

兩個人眺望遠方
以爲愛的晴朗
當我回頭望　卻　已淚濕了眼眶
當夕陽變成星光　當愛情換了方向
你一如過往　對愛太緊張
但未來又會怎樣
未知的明天總讓我徬徨
誰給我力量

我不怕你　愛不愛我　
只害怕你　以為愛我
抓緊我　不算擁有　你總學不會放手
我不怕你　不懂愛我
只怕你　把習慣　當作愛
你猜不透　我要什麼

兩個人眺望遠方
以爲愛的晴朗
當我回頭望　卻　已淚濕了眼眶
當夕陽變成星光　當愛情換了方向
你一如過往　對愛太緊張
但未來又會怎樣
未知的明天總讓我徬徨
誰給我力量

我不怕你　愛不愛我　
只害怕你　以為愛我
抓緊我　不算擁有　你總學不會放手
我不怕你　不懂愛我
只怕你　把習慣　當作愛
你猜不透　我要什麼

我不怕你　愛不愛我　
只害怕你　以為愛我
抓緊我　不算擁有　你總學不會放手
我不怕你　不懂愛我
只怕你　把習慣　當作愛
你猜不透　我要什麼

喔　你猜不透　我要什麼

2009-07-21T22:29:00.002+08:00

Life is just a bore at times

sometimes i wish that i could just sleep and hope that everything just goes on

i mean,

i am tired to continue at times.

Honestly, whenever i do PW, i just wish i can sleep instead

why? cos i hate pw

to me, it;s damn bo liao

tired...

and my classrecently got 'quarantined' due to high absent rate

i explain

from now on, my class must sit in the balcony during lectures at the auditorium

i don't mind, cos can talk cock and don care about lesson. haha

i am turning bad...

I'm hooked onto the radio recently

why? no idea

but my life is going to turn into a mindless body,

so i can only hope that pw can be fully over

honestly, my group has been wonderful

i am not

so i should start pulling up my socks

haha

:)

言承旭-在KTV說愛你

朋友似乎有意不提起原來你在這里
我的微笑太久沒練習也許你已忘記
微亮燈光下的你還是一樣美麗
有沒有一首K歌可以給我勇气
說句對不起

麥克風在其他人手里遙控器傳給你
我點的歌慢慢往上移越靠近越猶豫
不是唱到一半的我假裝忘旋律
只是寫詞人太細膩描述我和你
過去揪著我的心

我的愛回不去我只能在KTV說愛你
散場之后抱著影子哭泣
我的愛播不停同一首歌還在悼念愛情
只是現在你的眼睛最遠的距离

麥克風在其他人手里遙控器傳給你
我點的歌慢慢往上移越靠近越猶豫
不是唱到一半的我假裝忘旋律
只是寫詞人太細膩描述我和你
過去揪著我的心

我的愛回不去我只能在KTV說愛你
散場之后抱著影子哭泣
我的愛播不停同一首歌還在悼念愛情
只是現在我的關系最遠的距离

我的愛誰在意我只能在KTV說愛你
卻听見自己顫抖的聲音
我的愛沒有你這房間容不下我的傷心
因為你切歌的堅定停止我呼吸

2009-07-16T21:32:00.002+08:00

lalala

supposed to be doing EoM, but decided to blog first.

this entry is mainly to blog about my results that i had received back today and to give insightful comments.

here are the resuts (IN ANY PARTICLAR ORDER WAITING TO BE DEFINED)

Maths A 85.0/100
Chem A 74.0/100
Econs U 31.0/100
Phy D 52.0/100
GP E 47.5/100

A A U D E, not bad hor...

Now for comments...

Maths:
Damn pleased!!! Topped my class. Shiok ah!!! The paper was tough, that's true. The first 5 questions took me 1 hr! Luckily I recovered in time lah! Good, better maintain for promos.
P.S. who wants to have a copy of AJ Maths midyear paper, find one day we trade papers lah! Say fist ah, damn tough ah!

Chem:
Found Section B ok, meaning had confidence that i can score. MCQ was time draining, section A i 'huo gai' never study lah, even though get A, honestly, i know i could do much better!

Econs:
Hahahahaha. This is a joke. Whole class only 1 pass! Not me though, although i really wanted to pass to have perfect record. But so what, I already know that I fail liao. So, already got 'xin li zhun bei'. Hahahaha :D

Phy:
The one i am MOST disappointed with. Actually, i really know that i can do much better in PHY. Honestly speaking, the ranking system that the phy department has just spurs me to do better. To be able to see my name at the top is a factor that pushes me. But yet i did little study, was sleeping in the paper. Even though i passed, i really wanted to do better.
Regrets, but remember, i am the 'le guan' one, even if econs U i also like dont care, i only can say that the next hurdle, promos, must overcome!

GP:
I PASSED LEH!!! i crapped my compo, causing the teacher to comment that i cannot choose a question which i have no evidence. READ MORE! Oh well, i deserved it! :) AS for compre, i really pissed people off as my answers, even though wrong, still marked correct. I explain. While the lecturer was going thru answers, i found out that even though i got do lifting, i still was marked correct! Heng Ah! I got 2.5marks free because of that!

OK, maybe the reason that i can afford to be 'le guan' is that i got 2 As liao, i must admit, it could be true.

Ok, need pia EoM liao.

TMR First Draft, xian

2009-07-09T21:35:00.002+08:00

lala, am blogging now.

Think I know my Econs grade liao, sure fail, unless case study full marks, why leh, cos our teacher say our whole class failed the essay component(25 marks)

Haha, i know i die liao, when she went thru with us the outlines for the essay qn, i see the model answers the guys just surrender liao.

For other subjects, haven pester them for clues yet, think if i pester them they give me scolding.

Yes, 0109 has a new PD tutor cum GP cum PW tutor. Think she quite nice so far. But must still give her time. Then maybe she 'yuan xing bi lu' (don't know how to write that in chinese, my chinese die liao!!!)

Recently watched Drag Me To Hell, honestly and luckily, i forgot the gory details, can only remember the passive ones.

Someday, I really need to 壮胆!!!

Now supposed to do some research, but Oh Well...

And bloddy heck, the AMKSS Awards Nite got postponed, heard that it's due to H1N1, xian. Aiyah, anyway my motive there is to finish the food only. Haha!!

And after a long time never blogger, during this absence, i learnt a lot of things, i have a lot to say, but everytime i forget to type them

The only thing I remembered, is that life is short, thus I must do what I want to do so that I won't regret, I have to stop finding excuses for myself and just be brave to pursue what I want, for it might be too late!

Ya, pursue...

Ok, gtg,time to work!!!

Good Luck to myself, hope don't get shocked by grades!

2009-06-22T11:26:00.002+08:00

hi people, a lot of things to say!!!

This month of June, i planned to do the following:

1. Study for the upcoming common test
2. Train for my Napfa
3. Save enough $$$ for future uses!

Unfortunately, i did neither 3 during the past 3 weeks.

As i'm typing this, I'm actually doing some e-lecture on waves, and hearing the teacher lecturing took me by surprise AT FIRST, then i almost fell asleep! AGAIN!

I really didn't do any studying, ok lah, maths homework got, but not all. I really can't be helping people all the time. Ok lah, maths i will definitely help, but not others.

Cos there is always a limit to everyone and once that limit is breached, people will turn on you and your options will be gone...

Anyway...

4/5 outing happened on 15 June. It was super fun people!!! I was damn tired for today! Had a captains ball math and i am definitely sure that captains ball, when played on sand, saps away everyone's stamina!!! Then came the titanic soccer match, Kenneth+Esther VS Zong You and Chun You,(the folowing text may carry some propaganda, those who want to correct it(Like the parties involved) feel free to do so!) we did some WARM UP by playing a bit of shooting, then came the MAIN EVENT, where we officially team up and play the first match, which was won by me and Esther, 5-2, haha! Then came the COOL DOWN, which was won by Zong You and Chun You, aiyah, cool down mah, thus i slack a bit!

Haha, i post this definitely piss Chun You off!!!

Then, went to Vivo to eat dinner, played Truth Or Dare

And i almost got interrogated!

Luckily i escaped!

And then, homed!!!

And to Xiu Wei, i promise to organise the next 4/5 outing (Most probably in November or December!). Just give me the password and username to class blog!

Haha

Then on tuesday, went to Malaysia,

Things there are less expensive,

bought a pair of shoes at 69.90

That's in ringgit, thus in sing dollars it will be 29.10!

But my dream pair haven buy yet, cos the cost of that pair is 98.10, after discount!!!

Friday had 2/4 outing, fun and more tired than 4/5 outing, and spent more too...

OK, need to stop now, cos i need to study,

and the next entry willbe at july, when i blog about my results

i hope to have good things to share!!!

Lectures are BORING!

Haha!!

2009-06-04T14:25:00.002+08:00

hihi

as most people have seen, my blog got targeted by some idiot

xian....

anyway...

now is the june hols

but first 2 weeks quite boring...

why?

Read

2-June:Maths olympiad
3-June:Maths Olympiad competition and physics tutorial
4-June:Maths Lecture
7-June:Special Olympics at NUS
8-June:Same
9-June:Chem lecture and maths tutorial
10-June:CCA
11-June:Econs tutorial
MOST IMPORTANTLY
22-June:4/5 Outing!!!

Thus, the first 2 weeks quite boring...

common test after hols

must study...

DO AS WELL AS YOU CAN, AND DO NOT REGRET FOR ALL THE EFFORT YOU HAD PUT IN.

2009-05-12T21:22:00.002+08:00

here to blog...

recently turned 17

supposed to be a super joyous day...

but not super joyous...

only joyous

i mean, last year was better...

this year still ok...

cos everything got better on the next day.

i thank everyone who wished me happy birthday on wednesday.

marcus, weilin, liyu, mr tan,yong bang and 0109, who set me up!

Haha!!!

Most importantly, that day just did not went accordinly to plan...

i wanted to keep a low profle, so that YOU didn't know...

Well, YOU knew anyway...

Thanks 0109!!

Best friends forever!!!

Next day...

got shocked...

Received present from Audrey, Wang Kee and Xiao Dan!!!

Thanks for the present! Sure cherish it!!!

went out on that day

belated celebration

thanks!!!

Best!!!

now damn xian in life

this week is the actual performance of the stajeworks play

at esplanade

grand leh

serious time

will miss a lot of school

miss tmr

xian

but maybe

damn fun

better hope

YOU truly have been making me Depressed!!!
YOU have been ignoring me like no tomorrow
Maybe I am paranoid
I hope it's me that is overreacting
I hope everything is normal
I hope that YOU would not know...
But do YOU?
Maybe...

2009-05-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

Today seems to be a stressful day…

I mean, that is life in AJC…

Sometimes I wonder if 0109 really knows me…

I mean, on the outside, or in their point of view, they think I am those super active and noisy ones, but on my inside do they see a guy who really needs help, has his problems but unable to express them out…

I doubt they understand..

Everyone has their own problems, I understand, it’s only the skill of saying them out…

I lack those skills………….

I truly want to say that for today is that it is the gloomiest day in my jc life. For once, I felt like giving YOU up.

Yeah, I can’t believe it..

I know my limitations, I know it is a one-way traffic.

But why must YOU bring both happiness and sorrow in my life…???

I tried every trick I know

All I want is to be there for YOU…

Yet I failed to do so…

YOU have truly been the source of my suffering…

Why YOU?

Why YOU?

2009-04-28T14:39:00.002+08:00

everybody is blogging about their stressful life.

yah, so is mine.

ajc is a very stressful jc, don't know why

now at the school library, feel like updating.

i am feeling so confused recently, whether to go on or to stop!!!

For what, practically everything in life.

i really have no idea...

just like everyone in class...

i really am confused...

2009-04-23T17:57:00.002+08:00

yeah, getting to update during this day when i am truly free!

Stajeworks(Drama for those who don't know what staje is) is now 3 times a week, so 'hiong'!!! Where got time to update, thus must die die update now!!!

Recently got pissed by my form teacher cum gp tutor cum pw tutor.

This is how it goes: My teacher was teaching. teaching, and still teaching when she just blurted a 'wah lau', this is stil ok, what happened next was that she said she got the 'KENNETH DISEASE', i mean, what the hell, like that san me, even my chem teacher doesn't do that level of suanning!!! what the hell, when i heard that i felt like giving her one tight slap. Teachers normally will say " sorry" or "just joking", but she didn't. IDIOT!!!

It's Friday tmr, damn afternoon pe.

one thing about 0109(my class) is that it is filled with people from all possible areas. There is still a Jay Chou fan, and i got psychoed by him a little(oops sorry jun hao), there is still less guys, 19 GIRLS and 6 GUYS! Weep... There is some that are just not well liked(NOT YOURS TRULY), there are the muggers, after all, you are in AJC, must mug lah!!! There is a damn smart ass(ECONS GOD) and many more.

I've been listening to Jay Chou songs for this period of time, not bad!!!

蒲公英的约定

小学篱笆旁的蒲公英
十几英里有味道的风景
雾水草场传来她的声音
多少年后也开始很好听
将愿望折纸飞机寄出信
因为我们等不到那流星
等枕头坠离命运的引力
却不知道到底能去哪里

Chorus:
已经长大的约定那样清晰
拿过到的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性

——————————————————————
在走廊想霸占她手心
我们却注意窗边的情敌
我去到哪里你都跟很紧
哼歌而梦在等待着惊喜

Chorus:

已经长大的约定那样清晰
拿过到的我相信
说好要一起旅行
是你如今唯一坚持的任性
已经长大的约定那样珍惜
与你聊不完的曾经
而我已经分不清你是友情
还是错过的爱情

i love this song, it's good!!!

2009-04-06T13:18:00.002+08:00

lala, no school today...

because aj had family day yesterday. damn busy, went home and slept for 2 hours, after dinner slept at 8 plus and woke at 9 plus today.

told you i was damn tired.

was excited to see chuping, chunyou, jeanette, baolin, xiuwei,polar(long time never see him liao)and esther. And spent $12 yesterday, mainly on food and games. Meiyen stall's just like our 45 nomad stall(if you all can remember) and it was $1-1.50. Audrey's stall was about bowling, $2 for 5 tries, qinjie's stall sold potato salad at $1, xiaodan's stall sold drinks(And i didn't went to thir stall, oops...), zongyou's stall was about sudoku, i not bad, 2.46 for an easy sudoku, unfortunately, my record got shot down by 1 second. Grrrr...

My stall damn hardcore, all of a sudden our sales rose like hell. and we managed to finish before others!!!

Yeah!!!

today going to be quite xian. Super houseworkday. wash dishes, hang clothes, vacuum and mop floor. (Weep...)

If only more 4/5 peoplecame to support aj family day, then i could have harassed them...

bye for now. now to have lunch...

2009-04-02T17:28:00.002+08:00

lalalalala, posting!!!

term 2 has icked in, and i am feeling the heat!!

PW is already making me go crazy (I'm doing research now...) GP is still ok, just that i got 13.5/30 for a gp compre test. Chem, can,t stand the lecture theatre, the aircon seems to have a temper on it's own can shut down during lecture... Physics is ok ok. Maths is better than the others, learning new thngs and concepts, learning how to present answers.

Family day is coming, my stall is doing riceballs,worse thing is, i have to run on that day.some mass run. and they wanted us to stay overnight at school due to us being the second bath to run. Curses

...

my life is full of obstacles, every thing just happes to impede me. am now given opportunities to salvage it. Go for it!!!

Make me proud!!

also, today i seemed to be cursed with unlucky hands. today iwas in a draw to see who is in a speaking activity, so heng(or suay) i draw my own name!!! What the hell!!!

Stop here fo now...

Need to do work...

miss the good old times sometimes...

really..

not that my currnt life is bad. it's good and fun

but perhaps a clas of 40 has more fun... like 4/5..

it is...

...

..

.

2009-03-09T15:28:00.002+08:00

don't say that i am a rotter, cos i am not.

it's just that i can't be online freely, like being online at night.

life at ajc is just too tiring, like now i am blogging at the school library, not at home.

here no mood to go deep into details.

i have a lot to talk about. think i will save that for next post.

pw is a terror, and my teacher just made my life like a living hell...

tmr have to present pw, and i just 'çannot wait'

xian, drama camp collide with amk family day. weep... cannot go...

well, life is tough, and jc life is even tougher...

let us recharge and be ready for all that is thrown to us...

that applies to everyone...

and btw, visit class blog more often leh... it's dying...

and there is no space available to bury it

haha...

2009-01-16T10:07:00.002+08:00

submitted the jae form on wednesday.

1.AJC-SCIENCE
2.AJC-ARTS
3.YJC-SCIENCE
4.YJC-ARTS
5.NYJC-SCIENCE
6.NYJC-ARTS
7-12.POLY COURSES

If i really landed in the arts stream, i think i will take PMGE, physics, maths, geog(H1) and econs.

if i didn't make it into ajc, i still got yjc, so near, walk 3-5 minutes can already!!!

hope i make it!!!

2009-01-13T10:08:00.002+08:00

yesterday went to collect my o level results.

english:B3
combined humanities:A2
E maths:A1
A maths:A1
physics:A2
Chemistry:A2
biology:B3
Higher chinese:C5
L1R5:11

i am happy that my english got B3, better than getting a C, but the A1s that i hope for in comb.humans and chem were missing! i even placed all my eggs in chem.

i know. think postvely. at least i can still go ajc

but i realy wondered where it went wrong.chem, i can blame spa, and it should be spa's fault, aiyah, blame the school lah, cause they are too honest!!! for comb.humans,maybe the ang mohs can't read my handwritng, at least my bio still get B3

for chinese, expected lah, i rarely get B and above for chinese

now that yesterday is over, life is back to normal, the long anticipation of the results is also over...

school is next!!!

2009-01-12T10:46:00.002+08:00

oh great, blogging just hours before collecting results!!!

hours later, we will see where fate takes us. to me, i can only say that why think of the possibility of scoring bad when you can think of the possibility of scoring good, after all, we had worked hard for the results,unless you haven't work hard. if not, we should carry a positive attitude!!!

people say that the higher your hope are, the harder you fall. True. but then again, we can still hope, right?

life yesterday...

Went to collect edusave award at morning, as usual, the ceromony is boring, at least this year's ended earlier than last year's, so i should be cheering(huh?)then at the tuition class,i finally taught my pupil division and he finally see the light. this made me so happy, but as devil, i still gave homework. angel(mei yen)came and scolded pupil for not doing her chinese homework. well, at least he did my maths homework!haha!!!

i realised 1 thing over the ast weekend, i totally forgotten my a maths,differentiation and integration and a lot more. started to panic and read the whole a maths textbook just to try to remember my a maths! it was a real shock for me as i should not have forgotten, but yet i did, like that how to survive in jc...

Hence, i resolve to do maths for this month, starting tmr!

let us all wish that 4/5 will soar, as one!!!

2009-01-08T11:58:00.002+08:00

oh great, my life is rotting...

nowadays, my schedule becomes uniform, morning: wake up eat and do housework. afternoon: eat linch,play com, watch tv and slack, night: watch tv, eat dinner and still slack.

need a boost in life, hence, can't wait for school to start, but first must get results...

4 more days to getting results, can't wait...

may your dreams and asirations be realised...

2009-01-05T12:24:00.002+08:00

it seems to me that my blog is reaching the stage of decomposition!!!

The truth i, sometimes i want to blog, but am just too lazy to type anything!!!

Today, yours truly is feeling inspired to write something. Anything.

this post is the first in the year of changes. very soon the class will have to say goodbye. people say that the friends at sec sch are the best, well,i hope that is true. some of us will want to go poly while others will want to go jc, and we will make new friends. hence i hope that i will be able(must if required) to stay in contact with the 4/5 08 people, boys especially!!!

have already thought very carefully about life in 2009, if i score a single digit in L1R5 then it is either njc or ajc, depending on who is going to which jc, after all, i don't want to be all alone, with no other amksian in my next phase of education. but should fate have want it, and give me a 15 and above for L1R5, i have confirmed plus chop that i go yishun jc, after all, it is very near.

in fact, i have finally took a serious look at the things that the polys sent. the one from sp is the one that i had looked. and it looked good, then, i thought of going to a poly, probably a food course, and maybe i will put 1-2 poly courses in the 12 choices, but sp really too far lah!!!

i have recently learnt that one must really learnt to forgive and forget, something happened at home, causing me to type this paragraph! In the past, yours truly, who had a immature mind, loved the word revenge,now, this word only pops up at a probability of 1%. yet, i learnt that to exact revenge is the silliest thing to do. after all, humans must 和睦相处.

made some resolutions on my own. this year i am going to try my best to study hard and really try to be a top student( although this resolution looks like it will be broken). I also resolve to be a top tuition teacher and earn lots of extra allowance!!! i resolve to be smarter and not get fooled like an idiot(if you know what i mean). i resolve to stay in contact with people in 4/5 and maybe disturb the jerk everyday, haha, just joking!!1

wow, this post is long.and see you all in seven days.

may fate bring us to the place we hope for...