Saturday, April 16, 2011
this time, this post isn't a need, but a commitment, sad... -_-
but really, enjoying my block leave now, and life after POP is really like a POP, when i saw my posting, hmmm, i sort of expected i won't get into sispec, but nvm, what Raven taught me is to persevere, and before army i was really looking forward to something slack, but right now, i am wanting something hiong, cos i wan some nice memories, i foresee my future posting to be slack but sian, and it's all what i deserved :( i haven say my posting, it's RP, apparently i'm gonna do guard duty for the next 2 years, so, sian la :(
this week has been ok for me, mon went out with section mates, tue went out with ws and ray, wed went back AJ and had dinner with qj, zy, des, cp and cy :) but thur was cooped at home as i didn't arrange for anything as my interview occupied me, to think i thought it will kill me -_- and 1 hour of fri afternoon was spent washing army stuff, sian la, tmr morning have to do packing, but nvm, i'm taking things slowly for now, i think i still have time :)
and i'm back to my youtube shows :) :) :) right now i'm watching conan and power rangers. but too bad, it ends this sat, cos i'm going out on Sunday :) hopefully, and i really hope, sincerely, that at least 10 could make it, but right now, if the outing doesn't get cancelled all of a sudden, it's alr an achievement, i guess the divide's always there, it's i who choose not to see it. :(
been spamming my NDS, i miss playing NDS daily, and with this new posting, althoughi won't get t bookout daily, nvm, my aim is to not ge confined or some shit -_-
i wanna go out this sat, but who shld i ask, it's like ppl are either busy, working, have their own plans, dating, sian la, i need something to occupy my block leave, i don wan to be a com nerd :(
hopefully will have the mood to post come my next bookout, i hope to share positive memories, and hopefully, i can share something like, I'm accepted into NTU, hopefully, really only can hope now -_-
gd luck to those peeps in Raven 01/11 Platoon 1 , enjoy ur postings, work hard, don slack off, and just take on our duties head on jiayou :)
seriously, i'm hungry, i don know why? or maybe i'm just itching for a snack......
::12:30 AM
Friday, March 4, 2011
i really like this blog, right now, it's like a mental companion
first post after bookout, yeah, it's been so long, but life's been tough recently
life at home sucks big time, some freaking personal problems that i don wan to say to anyone is plauging my life damn bad. my home used to be a place i look forward to, now, i am not sure of its existence anymore. as it turned out, it never existed, and my views about the word family for the past 18 years have only been one-sided, it was never reciprocated at all :(
sometimes i just think about tekong, BMT is fun, though there's lots of shit, at least we recruits go thru it tgt, that's the experience i want to keep, at home, right now, i have forgettable experiences, i don wish to go home at all, it's damn lonely and it tears up my soul :(
many ppl most likely don't know how i feel, i don know who to look for to ever feel happy again, right know, i feel damn good, and happy when i'm with my friends, but family, right now, this word cannot exist in my dictionary, cos it's impossible
okok, talk about today, a level results day
H1 econs C
H1 GP C
H2 Phy A
H2 Chem A
H2 Math A
on the bright side, i did what i wanted, i got the 3 As, i passed my gp and econs, and i did not get a grade worse than D, so i was not feeling sad about my results. but as i looked at the IGP, meaning the cut-off for uni courses, the ones i want to enroll in demand higher standards :
seriously, now i learn that one cannot be so narrow minded when making choices, initially mt choices were business, or math related courses
right now i'm seriously looking at every course and see whether it suits me, or i suit them, so my state of mind right now, is confused
i am confused about life, and everything :(
someone help me :(
::11:59 PM
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
alright, my last post before i go army, and i really have no idea what to type here leh
ok la, lets talk about CNY, CNY this year has been fun, with family gambling sessions the best, cos for the first time, i managed to win money, and quite shockingly, AJC played a role in it, cos when i wore my AJ Cheetah house tee and played mahjong, i managed to win $$$, once i lost about $5 alr and i quickly wore that t-shirt and turned the tables around and won quite some $$$, like that shirt man
went to quite a few houses, but as usual, i don interact that much, just go that weird weird feeling whenever i visit someone else's house. maybe the angbao matters though, hehe :)
CNY has been about feasting on goodies, i think my chin-ups now die liao, i haven try them out for the past 1 month, but at the very least, i got Silver for Napfa hor, lucky? no way, i worked hard for it, and if i can do it once, i can do it again :)
during sunday, i wasn't able to attend 0109 outing (sorry guys -_-) cos i got dinner with grandparents. after dinner everyone just talked until 11pm, and most of us were shocked that it was 11pm alr.
and for these past 3 days, it was me, and the com, and done. i realised that i eally want to do lots of things in life, i want to be a teacher (many ppl know that alr) but i also want to learn football coaching, learn MMA and kick ass, be a volunteer, damn it, if only my enlistment was in may, or if only i was a girl, then no NS, and free to pursue my goals. i wouldn't call these my dreams yet, cos i don really need to accomplish all these, i wish to, but i don't need to. what i really need to do is stated on my facebook profile alr, but right now, MMA fighter, soccer coach, and if possible, be involved in staje still. cos i saw my seniors still actively involved in staje, as an actor, as a play write, i don know, it just seemed fun and exciting.
of course effort is needed if u want to pursue ur goals, i can only wonder if i have the perseverance to pull through and lead the life i want to live.
talking back about army, i got most of the stuff packed alr, i can't believe feb 10 came at so fast, it really is like a blink, but can i accept reality, well have to, and become a man. i'm only left with the goggles, some detergent, and stuffing all these items into one bag, haix, i will really miss a lot of my friends, but also my com, my ds and miss being a slacker
IT'S TIME TO GROW UP, LEE YONG CHANG KENNETH, FROM NOW ON, U'RE Y C LEE, AND I'M GONNA JUST PERSEVERE, AND PULL THROUGH :)
::1:49 PM
Friday, January 28, 2011
today is 28/1/10, when a few hours later i will start the 4thday of my promoter job.
so far, station (meaning promoter) has been bring so far, with not many ppl around the minimart. so far sales have been slow, so what i did was to interact with the kids that i see :) and right now i'm reporting for work earlier, so as to earn more money :)
so today, tmr and sunday, hoping to see sales boom, at least i won't be so bored on my job and need to resort to playing ds and read newspapers to relieve my boredom.
and is pokka green tea really that nice? i don know leh, many ppl say it's nice, and i could buy one can and try someday, cos drinking green tea isn't really my favourite activity
interacting with the kids really made me think that one day, i will sign up to be a volunteer, maybe not now, but maybe hen i've finally settled down :)
right now, there isn't anything i want to blog about, so, okok, next post shall be about my buys during CNY, hopefully i can get what i want :) (orange fantasy...)
and sometimes in life, u just gotta be alone for a change
there's no point asking someone to accompany u when most of the time u are just alone
alone is my new friend, my partner, my life and my destiny
::10:27 AM
Thursday, January 6, 2011
hmmm, first post of 2011, and it's made on 6/1/2011, which was 19 days since last post :(
and i;m using a new laptop to type the first post of 2011, with additional warranty, this laptop cost 1200 bucks, and will be monthly payment of $50 per month over 2 years, haha, 2 years in army and this com will be fully paid, can't wait :)
but a slight problem is, i have slight difficulty typing on this lappy, so need time to adjust, cos i keep spelling words wrong, but at least, it's fast (like duh, this is a NEW laptop), if it's slower than the old one then why i buy? LOL :)
hmmm, so i recently have this supermarket job, and BELIEVE ME, it's a horrendous job :( it's like we have to do shelving, and remove stuff from shelves, fine, i'm ok with this, but one thing is, most of the time the old products are not reflected on the new price tags, so we have to anyhow put these old products back, and next time take them down again, when the correct products arrive, I mean, what the heck man, this job is stupid la, the only thing i learnt, is how to read panelgrams, which i am sure anyone can read after a 1 minute briefing
sian la, at least i am ending soon, working at shop n save was a mainly bad experience. although get to know a few nice friends, it still can't outweigh the mundane behaviour of the job
and after shop n save (i'm ending on 8-1-2011, which is this saturday), i'm working at another SUPERMARKET job, yeah, this time it's at econ minimart
apparently, job description is as follow:
* Work in supermarkets
* Starting on 14 Jan to 2 Feb 2011
* Stock up and promotion of CNY drinks
* Commemorative T-shirt and training provided
* Basic + Completion Bonus
* Students welcome to apply!
hmmm, seems much more interesting than shop n save, but then again, i learnt that agencies can't really be trusted fully, shop n save job wasn't supposed to be that bad. expected pure menial labour, where u just work, and don't have to think, ok la, so i get to work in air-con environment, but work with guys, and no girls, is a minor turn-off, then have to crack our brains to think about how to stuff the goods, and not make the floors so cramped, SIAN TTM!!!!!!!!! -_-
so if i start on 14 Jan, that means i only have a 6 day break between the 2 jobs, hmmm, i think enough for me to do a few things. on 10 Jan, i will go back to AMKSS, see my juniors get results and maybe give the rundown of AJC, and it's secrets. hehehe LOL
and i will go gym one day, and maybe catch a movie during a weekday, i think i will just do these things alone, no point finding someone else to accompany u and then have to plan this and plan that. alone is sometimes the best policy :)
after all, u cannot escape from ur own destiny, up till now, i still believe that i'm destined to be alone. an i can't change that.
NOTE TO SELF: blog more, and blog more regularly :)
::11:37 PM
Saturday, December 18, 2010
so recently celebrated zong you and qin jie birthday :)
day started very well, played wii at chun you's house, then went to buy steamboat ingredients, and desiree was mad at me for mixing up between bones and broth :(
then screw up came when me and zong you went for job confirmation -_- and it turns out we two could ave gone on friday, sian
and the jb we got, is cheap labour, gonna work for shop and save, help do some shelving, carrying stuff, and it's simply hard labour, pay's $5 per hour, and lucky for me, i don need to pay transport cost, cos it's only a 5 minute walk :)
but the bad thing is, this job only involves guys, so i guess u ppl can infer from here what's the bad point about this job :(
okok, that was for thursday, otherwise i rotted for the remaining 4 weekdays, and today, it's still a standard saturday, and i wished i can go out more often, although going out=spending more money, and i still want to fulfill dream 1
and here we go to topic of this post, dreams :)
on facebook, on the left, in the self-intro box, this is what that is written:
My 3 dreams (as of 14/12/2010)
1. To own as many orange merchandise as possible
2. To open my own tuition centre that charge low fees
3. and the most important one, to work as a volunteer teacher in another country, helping to rebuild lives :)
actually, i want to write more, but i didn't know there's a word limit
and today, i feel so relaxed to do lots of typing, and put my thought in order :)
1. i mean, it's obvious, right now, i only own very few orange merchandise, it's a dream to own orange shoes, water bottle, watch, slippers, handphone(though i don know if there is one, maybe an I-phone with an orange protector?), shirts and lastly, an orange NDS!!! the orange NDS is something i only saw on google images, so i wonder if that can happen. This dream may need lots of time and money to complete, and i wonder by when will it happen? -_-
alternatively, i can buy orange NDS casing, but that's only a consolation prize :) maybe an orange laptop? i also don mind orange socks, but DEFINITELY not orange hair, this is a bit too much :)
someday if this dream number 1 is fully realised, i will post a picture, of me in all this merchandise, but don't expect this blogskin to turn orange, maybe it will happen, but not in the next 2-3years :)
2. it's a dream i had whenever i thought about the topic of tuition. during my time at AMKSS, it's a dream of mine to become a teacher, cos i was inspired by the people i met at amkss, regardless of classmates or teachers :) and in AJC, 0109 guys sometimes talked about dreams, apparently, according to yibin, pisces ppl like to daydream (he said this, cos he said he liked to dream about his future), and yibin also said that if i straightaway go become a teacher after a levels, i will limit my options in life (this was echoed by almost all the 0109 pisces guys, and i really agree) indeed, it's important to ensure that u are stuck in crossroads, at least keep ur options as many as possible, and thus i want to stidy business at university, so that i can try to fulfill dream number 2, i want to appear on newspapers, saying this tuition centre produces good results and is very affordable, cos i don want tuition to be something that the rich parents abuse. tuition should be affordable, low fees such that the poor can also enjoy tuition, if they need it, also, my dream tuition centre will have an e-portal of student-teachers, such that students that want to tutor can register with me, and i will arrange deals for them, of course, this is already very common, but most ppl would not want to employ students as they may be inexperienced, hence, my portal will need to consist of students that are willing to earn much much low rates, i mean, as a student, u can't charge high rates if u are waiting for results (O/A levels) right? just accept low rates, gai some teaching experience and maybe consider a career as a teacher. this is my dream, to give students who aspire to be teachers an avenue to teach, arn some pocket money and not always ask their parents for money. ok, my stand is that if u can afford it, try not to ask money from ur parents, this is why i had to pay for my A levels, cos i could afford it, thus i want to instill the spirit of independence among these students, that's my aim, my dream :)
3. this dream was made when i watching those celeb volunteer shows on channel U during 2 years ago, if i'm not wrong. i want to be a volunteer, but to be a teacher, to teach children in poverty-stricken areas in OTHER COUNTRIES, to try to rebuild these ppl's lives. education is very important, and everyone should undergo education, ppl in poverty-stricken areas really need education, and if the kids can get educated, they could grow up to become useful ppl and bring their area out of poverty :) i know it amy sound very far-fetched and possibly over-generalisation, but another reason why i made this dream, is because so far, in my 18 years of life, i don really feel accomplished in singapore, ok there are man great ppl i know in s'pore, but yet there is thus emptiness in me, i feel empty, countless failed attempts to seek the special someone, some really sad moments when i grew up, all these amde me want to get out of this country, and if i can get out of here, and help rebuild lives, i could end up feel more accomplished, leading a more fulfilled life :)
hmmm, it feels good to type out these 3 dreams that i want to achieve, and if i ever lost my direction in life, i could refer to this again and read it, and set off to this direction that i fixed upon on myself
dreams are very important, it instills a path in you, u know what u want to do and what u need to do in order to achieve your dreams, without dreams, ur life will really be an empty shell, no substance :)
and i believe, come one day, these 3 dreams (and maybe more dreams when i grow up) will all be fulfilled, and will be able to type about how i managed to fulfill my dreams :)
::9:19 PM
Monday, December 13, 2010
hmmm, i just have the sudden urge to blog, and i think it will end up in a once in a month blog post
so it's been 2 weeks since the end of a levels, and these 2 weeks have been rather eventful, although most of the time am still rotting at home. yeah, all i wanted is just a job that i can work for in the month of december, and hopefully i can land the relief teaching job next jan, and then go army in feb 10 :(
haix, army, maybe it is not as bad as we think, but then again, it's really subjective right. all i know is that one must not be a saboh king, and just don make enemies with ppl, saying goes, one more friend is better than one more enemy :)
during these 2 weeks, did some nice things, played soccer with some ajcians, attended 4/5 outing, where initially the 4/5 outing is almost a 4-5 ppl outing :(
yesterday had dinner with mr soh, and all the knowledge he imparted is very funny and useful, all the army stories (well, most of the talking was on NS), we talked about some other topics, chinese, harry potter, marking of papers, teaching, mr soh's so-called 'experience' in jail and so on :)
i really need something to do to keep me occupied, maybe applying for this temp cashier job that i am looking at right now :)
and today was a torturous day, today started with me walking from my house to naval base sec sch, actually, walking to the sch is no kicks, walking to the entrance is so tiring :( it's like, i see the sch, and i don know where's their entrance, so i ahd to walk and walk, and because i very stingy and want save on transport, i walked from naval base to chung cheng (branch) and from there to orchid park, then took 811 and followed by 804 to northbrooks, and then backtracked to north view, then took 804 back to bus interchange and took 800 to ahmad ibrahim, and took 800 again to yishun sec, then walked home
and the total time spent in the 7 schools is much much lesser than the traveling time, cos for every school, it's just go to their GO, and fill up some particulars and this took at most 5 minutes, some schools need fill up the visitor's arrival book, but all in all i think i spent a total of 1 hour at the schools, 30 minutes having lunch and 1 hour and 50 minutes walking and taking the bus, and all i hope is to get the job :) just any one school will do :)
end of post, next time, i'm gonna talk about dreams :)
::9:51 PM
